Tales From A Small Closet

ט"ו בטבת תש"ע
Grael 17

Commentary on Vayechi from Garden of the Dark Moon Jubilee - Tales From a Small Closet.

Treasure Moon

ט"ו בטבת תש"ע
Grael 17

The full moon is so beautiful in the clear night sky tonight! It is also a blue moon. In the witches' calendar, tonight's beautiful full blue moon is called the Treasure Moon.

What an excellent beginning to 2010!

Two Letters Of The Shem 'Chai'

י' בטבת תש"ע
Grael 12

In follow-up to entries describing my two most recent dreams (One Name and Secrets of the Name), I note now an interesting continuity and connection between the two dreams.

In the first dream, the letter chet (ח), the first letter of the shem chai (חי), is brought into being. [Shem Chai means Living Name.] The fully reduced digit sum of the name Ner-Itta (נר-אתתא) is 8, the value of the letter chet.

In the second dream, the letter yud (י), the second letter of the shem chai (חי), is brought into being. I stood firm upon a mountain suspended in midair; this symbolism corresponds to the letter yud.

It all just flows - extraordinarily, naturally - through my dreams with a grace smoothly orchestrated within the depths of the Divine soul.

Walking On Fire [Kindle Edition]

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Iconoclastic explorations of a Kabbalistic Witch of Celtic, Germanic, Jewish and Native American ancestry.


Blog Description:

Dare to be true to yourself ... Walking On Fire is the online written record of an eclectic solitary witch who dares - and whose nature-based ritual practice incorporates elements of Kabbalistic Judaism, Celtic Witchcraft, Germanic Paganism, Druidry and Native American Shamanism to wyrdly weave the elements together into a unique, inseparable and extraordinary wholeness. Many of the written studies focus using mystical-magical alphabets - including Hebrew, Ogham and Runes - to channel creative consciousness.

A witch born of known Welsh, British, Irish, Germanic, Jewish and Native American American (Cherokee and Potawatomi) ancestry, the Witchblood which runs through this witch's veins is a beautiful tapestry of many peoples. The spiritual traditions of all of her ancestors are legitimately her own. Blessed are the Ancestors, Descendents and the collective Folksoul of all her peoples through this pathworking.

Secrets Of The Name

ט' בטבת תש"ע
Grael 11

December 23, the Celtic calendar day of the secret of the unhewn dolmen, I drew the rune of gestation and energy transformation, Ingwaz. Then, I dreamt a dream (One Name).

Yesterday, on spirit cords, I read in Wheel of the Year, Living A Magical Life (Pauline Campanelli):

The purpose of this cord, like the circle it represents, is to contain power. These cingulums, or cords, are often knotted and are specifically four and a half feet in length, so they can be used as a compass with which to measure inner and outer circles. This cord has an ancient history and appears in some of the earliest Egyptian texts as the oval that surrounds a cartouche, or name, separating it from other hieroglyphics. The oval around a cartouche is in fact a cord tied with a knot, and its purpose is to contain the magical power of the name.

My black handbraided spirit cord (also called a cingulum and a witch's ladder) is as tall as I am. Yesterday, on my spirit cord, I measured to a point of four and a half feet, and marked that point by tying a knot interwoven with handdyed sunset sparkle black ribbon into the cord. With this point now marked, my spirit cord is now prepared to mark the boundaries of a traditional nine foot magic circle.

Last night (the night of the ninth of Tevet) I wore my spirit cord to bed and dreamt.

I was beautiful in my dream. I climbed a ladder to get to a school I was attending - the building of the school was like my old high, state university and grade schools combined. I was sitting in a college physical chemistry classroom (which looked like my sixth grade classroom) and had just completed the college physical chemistry coursework.

It was now time for a new year of classes. I had been scheduled in the system for college microbiology, but I had already taken that class in a past year. So, I left the classroom where I had completed college physical chemistry and went into the hallway (which looked like one in my old high school). I walked across the campus (which looked the campus of the state university I attended) and into the office where class scheduling changes are made. In place of college microbiology (which I had already taken), I took an advanced level course - that course was a Goddess Chemistry course.

After making the change to my schedule of classes, I walked outside onto the campus. I felt a rumbling behind me - someone with power was not pleased that I had signed up for Goddess Chemistry. That person's displeasure was directed at me through a curse upon the campus ground. The curse directed the ground to collapse in upon itself (thereby swallowing me up in it - as Korach was swallowed up in Bamidbar 16:30). But, the ground upon which I stood didn't collapse - I was left standing upon the summit of a mountain floating suspended in midair (like one of the floating mountains of Pandora in the movie Avatar, and as described in the mystical teaching on the hebrew letter yud). I looked around, my floating mountain was among a sea of floating mountains.

I woke up, washed up, got a drink of water, made my bed and drew the rune Ehwaz, the rune which harmoniously unifies dually arrayed forces (such as the body and its souls). Pronounced ay-wawz and ay-woh, Ehwaz has the phonetic values of the English e and Hebrew hei (ה).

Ehwaz is the nineteenth rune in my personal runerow.



Related entries:

Runes 1-3: Transmission of a Sacred Secret
Rune 4: The Wholiness Code
Rune 5: Mysteries of the Staircase
Rune 6: The Ship of Safe Passage
Rune 7: The Ætheling
Rune 8: Communication
Rune 9: The Nature Of My Work
Runes 10-11: Wyrd Shema
Rune 12: The View From My Room
Rune 13: Thurisaz On The Falling Man
Rune 14: Power To Do It
Rune 15: Wyrd Preparation
Rune 16: Mother Of Manifest Blessing
Rune 17: By Force Of Destiny
Rune 18: The Othala Force

Revisions

ח' בטבת תש"ע
Grael 10

I've made several revisions to my Torah commentary (One Name) on Vayigash, this week's parsha. I think I've made the last one for today. We'll see.

One Name

ח' בטבת תש"ע
Grael 10

Commentary on Vayigash from Garden of the Dark Moon Jubilee - One Name.

Connections

ז' בטבת תש"ע
Grael 9

I went to see the new movie Avatar last night. It was fabulous! The Na'vi exemplify Goddess spirituality. I am totally enchanted by this movie.

Read about Avatar and its connection to pantheistic Paganism here [from The Wildhunt blog].

Read about Avatar and its connection to monotheistic Judaism here [from my friend Lisha's blog, Always Sababa].

No Evidence Of Daas Torah

ג' בטבת תש"ע
Grael 5

A scathing spot-on observation by Yerachmiel Lopin concerning the leaders tainted by association with the Leib Tropper scandal on Emes Ve-Emunah:

You are focusing too much on Tropper because he was caught with his pants down. More important is that he was able to manipulate, bribe, flatter, and intimidate rabbonim who are dayanim and poskim.

R. Moshe was fearless and uncorruptible. But we seem to have a generation of pygmies.

Stop asking even if they knew or did not know about this or that detail. It makes no difference. An inspector general can also be fired even if he was diligent and honest if he cant discern what half the world knew.

We need proof to figure out who was clueless, who was corrupt, and who was intimidated. We don't need proof to know that a whole group of leaders showed that they are not up to the job of being leaders. There was no evidence of daas, let alone daas torah.

That certainly strikes at the heart of the matter.

Action Packed Adventures

ב' בטבת תש"ע
Grael 4

I had one action-packed dream after another in rapid-fire succession all night last night and through this morning. I and my group were superheroes in all of them. The dreams were a continuing saga, like 'episodes' of our adventures. I only remember a few details at this point, having been up and about for many hours and having not written them down right after I woke up completely for the morning.

One detail - I saw the feet and lower legs of a man as he was walking on fire (like the name of my primary blogspot). He was wearing brown casual suit pants and leather dress shoes.

One additional detail - I and my group were on a fast train out of a tight situation heading into the land of the living. Our enemies (along with the long and newly dead) were on the opposite track on a fast train heading into the land of the dead. This is the last detail of the last dream I dreamt this morning before waking up for the morning.

Nachash - The Advance To The Future

ב' בטבת תש"ע
Grael 4

Commentary on Miketz from Garden of the Dark Moon Jubilee - Nachash, The Advance To The Future.

One Yule Light

כ"ו בכסלו תש"ע
Shamash 28

This is the handcrafted candle I am lighting for Yule. "Scented with traditional Yule fragrances of Pine, Cedar, Oak and the warm essence of Cinnamon, the fragrance is completed with a a bit of smoke from the fire. The smokey, woodsy and traditional fragrance of this Yule Log Candle will fill my sacred place with a very Yule illumination. Each candle is adorned with a silver Holly charm and tied with festive red and green ribbons."

One Light - Lighting The Coel Coeth

כ"ו בכסלו תש"ע
Shamash 28

The Lesser Sabbat of the winter solstice (namely Yule, Geul, Giuli, Meán Geimhridh, Lá an Dreoilín, Modranicht, Alban Arthan, ...) in the northern hemisphere of the earth (my location) falls after sunset on the evening of December 21. This date is the seventh of Grael in the witches' calendar and the fifth of Tevet in the Jewish calendar; both dates fall within the month of the Elder Moon in the Celtic tree calendar.

On Yule and its connection to the magic circle of the witch, Mike Nichols writes:

"Ultimately, of course, the holiday is rooted deeply in the cycle of the year. It is the Winter Solstice that is being celebrated, seed-time of the year, the longest night and shortest day. It is the birthday of the new Sun King, the Son of God -- by whatever name you choose to call him. On this darkest of nights, the Goddess becomes the Great Mother and once again gives birth. And it makes perfect poetic sense that on the longest night of the winter, 'the dark night of our souls', there springs the new spark of hope, the Sacred Fire, the Light of the World, the Coel Coeth." At the Winter Solstice, the Circle is not yet a Circle; it is a Point. Specifically, it is the point at which spiritual energy manifests itself into the physical world. It is the divine spark, the sacred seed, the single cell, the incarnation, the universe in a mustard seed. In some ways, the Point is more inclusive than the Circle, since the Circle always implies a boundary, and a separation of that which is outside from that which is inside. The Point, however, can symbolize the All. At the Winter Solstice, we bless and purify this tiny dust-mote of Being, this Birth of the Circle, which is also All That Is. The Circle Is A Point.

Thus, Yule is the perfect sabbat in which to ground and from which to cast a magic circle in and with sacred time. Blessed be our circles this Yuletide, every one, with the amazing sacred power and joy of Yule -

- the Hebrew word for the redemption of humankind's collective consciousness is called Geulah (גאולה). The Germanic and Northern European words for Yule - Geul and Giuli - would be spelled in Hebrew גאול and גאולי. The Hebrew shoresh (three letter root) of all these words is גול (gule, yule) meaning rejoice! and express joy!

Have a blessed and deeply joyful Yuletide season! So mote it be! אמן

Related entry - The Seed

Related video - The One Light Of Chanukah (This evening we light the third/three Chanukah candle(s). The Hebrew letter gimel - ג - has a gematria of three and is the single letter root of the root word גול discussed above.)

Festivals Of Fire In Time

כ"ו בכסלו תש"ע
Shamash 28

In follow-up to Through the Fires of Time, there are four festivals of fire in stellar time. These are the Greater Sabbats, the High Holy Days, of traditional Celtic witchcraft.

The four Fire Festivals can occur anywhere between 29-59 days following the preceding solstice or equinox. Apices of feminine power in time, these sabbatot are Imbolc (between Yule and Ostara), Beltane (between Ostara and Litha), Lughnasadh (between Litha and Mabon) and Samhain (between Mabon and Yule).

The Lesser Sabbats of the solstices and equinoxes (namely - Mabon, Yule, Ostara and Litha) are yearly lunar power points linked to the earthly feminine biological cycle. While times of imbalance in the solar cycle, they are times of power for the feminine Earth.

The Lesser Sabbats ground us with the full feminine power of the Earth Mother. The Greater Sabbats, the cyclical Fire Festivals in the wheel of the pagan year, expands our consciousness into the otherworlds of the heavens, and fill us with the full power of Goddess.

Empowerment

כ"ו בכסלו תש"ע
Shamash 28

This morning another friend of mine tells me she has been told that when teeth shatter in dreams it indicates weakness and loss of control. She likes my interpretation better - for my interpretation is empowering whereas the other interpretation is disempowering.

Indeed, as written in Called Up By Goddess, the shattering of illusions is very empowering. This is an important distinction to understand.

When our illusions (which are inherently false and disempowering by nature) are shattered, we are being made stronger and our minds are being sharpened [1] - both resulting in true empowerment. Contrary to the other interpretations which have been told to my friend, we are NOT WEAK to have been chosen by Goddess to have our illusions shattered, rather we ARE STRONG enough. And, we may indeed lose control of our illusions, but through it, we GAIN CONTROL of our minds.

So, I reiterate - teeth dreams are good dreams to have. Moreover, they are blessings from Goddess through which we are empowered toward and brought closer to our own inner Goddess.

Footnote:

[1] Another meaning of the name of the Hebrew letter shin (ש) is 'sharp.'

Through The Fires Of Time

כ"ו בכסלו תש"ע
Shamash 28

In follow-up to Called Up By Goddess, here is another photo of my handcrafted Book of Shadows. In the creation of this truly magical book, the edges of the pages within it were handburned. Each timeless page has been called up by Goddess through the fires of time.

Called Up By Goddess

כ"ו בכסלו תש"ע
Shamash 28

A friend of mine inquired this evening as to the potential meaning of a dream in which her teeth are shattered. While we are each the ultimate masters and mistresses of our own dreams, I too, have had recurring "teeth dreams" ever since I was a little girl (and I am now a grandmother of six). Consequently, I am inclined to believe that my own significant experience with "teeth dreams" qualifies me to interpret such dreams in a general manner.

Generally, the turnover of teeth can represent a period of powerful change or transition driven by the Divine Feminine force of fire. Teeth dreams are good dreams signifying that Goddess is driving forward a major transition in one's life. Goddess is calling the dreamer up to the task of further spiritual development, to do greater magic.

When teeth are shattered, this usually signifies that our illusions are about to be shattered. How strongly we hold onto or how easily we surrender the illusions Goddess wishes to remove from us largely determines how painfully or peacefully we may experience the transition through which our illusions will be shattered.

Letting go of our illusions is a very important part of spiritual development - to be engaged and challenged by Goddess to do so is a challenge that is merited in some way. Only the worthy are called up to the test.

Teeth are also directly related to time, and specifically to the witches' wheel of the year, through the Hebrew letter shin (ש).

The Thin Veil Between Worlds

כ"ו בכסלו תש"ע
Shamash 28

In additional follow-up to Between the Pages of Time, in Hebrew the word for the color pink is ורד. From the shoresh (three letter root) רדד (meaning to render pliable), the root of the color pink also means thin veil. From this root is derived the Hebrew word mantles (וְהָרְדִידִים), as in the mantles of the daughters of Zion.

Consequently, the color pink in my dream this Shabbat morning pertains to the thin veil which separates between the worlds and designates Sacred Ground in time and space as taught in Celtic spirituality. This thin veil is composed of the magical mantles of the daughters of Zion. The daughters of Zion in Jewish spirituality means daughters of excellence.

It is with this sacred energy that a witch may cast and create her magical circle, within which she may do wonders.

Choice Gold

כ"ו בכסלו תש"ע
Shamash 28

In follow-up to Between the Pages of Time, on the significance of the color orange (to scribal writing and to the time of faerie/niddah), Balashon writes:

Katom כתום - orange - is also a "new" color, coined for the first time in Modern Hebrew. Klein writes that it derives from ketem כתם - gold.

As far as the connection between gold and writing, Steinberg claims that ketem refers to choice gold, and was so named because it was marked to indicate its value (see a similar opinion here).

and

In post-Biblical literature, ketem refers exclusively to the signs of niddah (menstruation) blood.

Thus, the color orange in my most recent dream connects scribal writing directly to the archetypes of feminine leadership (and specifically to the time of faerie/niddah).

Between The Pages Of Time

כ"ה בכסלו תש"ע
Shamash 27

Commentary on Vayeshev from Garden of the Dark Moon Jubilee - Between the Pages of Time.

The Hei Connection

י"ט בכסלו תש"ע
Shamash 21

Interestingly, my waking vision this Sunday morning (The Seed), my Shabbat dream (The Comet), and the new banner I designed for my blogspot (Walking on Fire) on Friday are all connected to the magical Hebrew letter hei (ה).

In The Seed, I took a seed ... הֵא-לָכֶם זֶרַע (Bereshit 47:23). The name of the letter hei, namely הא means to 'take seed.'

In The Comet, the King and I behold ... the name of the letter hei also means 'behold.'

In my new blogspot banner, the letter hei in cursive Hebrew script is seen to give birth to the proverbial 'light from darkness' and to all other letters. All of the Hebrew, Ogham and Rune letters in the banner were intuitively and mindfully chosen.

Here is a smaller version of the banner:

The Seed

י"ט בכסלו תש"ע
Shamash 21

A second waking dream vision I had very early this morning was that of a whole pomegranate being presented to me out from the darkness of night. I was to reach inside it and choose a single seed. I did. With my astral-spirit hand, I reached into the pomegranate (as it remained completely whole) and chose a single seed. I removed my hand and brought a single seed outside the body of the pomegranate. It was now a seed belonging to me.

Archetypes Of Feminine Leadership

י"ט בכסלו תש"ע
Shamash 21

Early this morning, I dreamt many dreams. One of the dreams was the waking vision of a faerie door. Simply, it opened before me in wordless recognition of my presence as we came together face to face. We came together as if the two of us were one - the faerie door and I - the faerie door is integrally part of me, it is my own. It opened before me. I briefly woke up.

According to Celtic Faerie traditional witchcraft, portals between worlds were built long ago by the Faerie Queen. I then, am the Faerie Queen. What then is She, this Faerie Queen? She is an archetype of transcendental Divine Feminine power.

Lieutenant Colonel Prisco R. Hernández (excerpts from Jung’s Archetypes as Sources for Female Leadership) writes:

Despite the presence of matriarchal systems, in most cultures, social and political power has been disproportionately exercised by males. Western culture, which evolved within a predominantly Christian context, has its religious sources in the Jewish-Semitic Middle East and the Greco-Roman political and philosophical traditions, both of which are distinctly patriarchal. This means that in the political, religious, and economic spheres the majority of leaders have been male. In those cases where women have been called upon to exercise leadership roles, they were expected to master “trans-gendered” roles and exercise male-like leadership. For example Queen Isabella of Castile was admiringly described by her contemporaries as a mujer de ánimo varonil (a woman of manly temper).

Nonetheless, Western civilization has not been entirely dismissive of the female psychic energies. The four female archetypes of the Faerie, the Wise One, the Lover, and the Queen are found in most cultures and provide insights into female patterns of leadership. As is the case with her male counterpart, the King, the Queen is the most complex and mature of the female archetypes. This is because the image of a Queen who serves as a center for the mature ordering of things includes and transcends the other archetypes of the Feminine. Indeed the most powerful embodiment of this archetype is the Great Goddess—The Great Mother. This cosmic image is the equal to that of an all powerful God, the source of complete cosmic power, but at the same time is more accessible, less menacing. Images that may point to such a Great Mother, a supernatural Queen, are among some of the earliest human depictions of a higher power.

On a human scale, a powerful woman who is entirely confident in herself and is capable of serving as role model would necessarily reflect on a more modest scale the attributes of the Queen. However, all the essential attributes of the archetype of the Queen are present in a real woman who plays that role, regardless of the scope her real responsibilities—be she queen of a nation, a clan, or her own family.

Since the archetype of the Queen is the richest, most mature form of the Feminine, it cannot arrive at the pinnacle of life-enhancing majesty without first participating in the attributes of other important feminine archetypes. Just as the King is not born as a King, but must start life as a Prince, the Queen begins life as a Princess. The Princess is called to evolve to the fullness of her potential and must earn her Queenship through a path that necessarily involves trials and suffering as the way to experience and maturity.

Interestingly, there is a triform (Maid-Mother-Crone) Goddess path to Queenship.

If the Prince must normally develop through the path of the Warrior, the Princess develops through that of the Faerie. This is the one archetype that is distinctly different for male and female development. Just as the Warrior is the most natural complement to the King and embodies a set of virtues that are necessary to Kingship, the Faerie is the most natural first step on the road to Queenship. The explosive centrifugal energy of the male Warrior archetype is balanced in the cosmic order of things by the attractive, centrifugal energy of the female Faerie archetype. The Faerie is not just a Princess, she is the symbol of all that is fair, all that is beautiful, all that transcends material existence. These concepts are not merely ornamental niceties but are at the very center of Being.

Just as the Warrior appears most fully when he gives himself over to death in an act of self-denial, the Faerie appears most fully when she denies herself all intercourse with men. This is the source of her power. She places herself outside any man’s power; thus, she has the power to inspire, to attract. Consider the real-life women who have embodied the Faerie—Joan of Arc, known as La Pucelle (The Maid), Elizabeth I “The Faerie Queen,” the Legendary St. Barbara— who is invoked as the Patroness of artillerymen in many armies throughout the world—St. Cecilia—the Christian embodiment of Musica; all eschewed conventional attachment to men.

Joan of Arc, who like a Valkyrie takes up the arms and armor of a Warrior, is also a Faerie—inspiring many warriors to heroic feats and an entire country to seek freedom. Her words demonstrate the power for active leadership generated by the Faerie archetype: “Go bravely; all will be well. Have no fear. We shall find none who can harm us; indeed, we shall meet with no resistance. I have no fear for lack of men. There will be many to follow me.”

Another path to Queenship leads through the archetype of the Wise One. If the Faerie inhabits ethereal regions where all appears as bright and luminous, the Wise One inhabits the shadows. She is at home near the earth, even inside the earth, inside the dark, moist, primordial womb, the source of all fertility. The Wise One is no longer young. She is mature, rooted. She is likely to be old and she is a Mother, or more likely, a Grand-Mother. In contrast to the Faerie, she has once been a companion to the male, she may have even loved a male, but she has now transcended all that and has reached a state of superior wisdom. In contrast also to her male counterpart—the Magician—her subtle mind seeks not to penetrate beneath the surface of things and probe the mysteries of nature, rather, she looks inward into the mysteries of Being.

It is natural for the Wise One to seek separation from her sisters who toil in the world. Her quest for special knowledge requires long hours of solitude for study and reflection. Most often, the Wise One becomes a seer, an advisor. But in some cases, the Wise One may [also] rise to be a Queen. She may then combine the attributes of the Queen and the Wise One, becoming the Wise-Queen. The Queen of Sheba, the counterpart to Solomon—the Magician King—illustrates this type of leadership. According to the Biblical narrative the Queen of Sheba came to Solomon as an equal, for she “…traveled to Jerusalem to test him with difficult questions.” In the Story of King Solomon and the Queen of Sheba the Wise-Queen meets the Magician-King and she is satisfied. Notice how the Queen of Sheba—the Wise One—does not fall in love even with Solomon—the Magician-King. She is beyond easy infatuation; she is whole within herself, secure in her arcane wisdom.

The fourth archetype of the mature feminine is the Lover. Even more that in the case of its male twin, the female Lover archetype poses a problem when taken in the context of leadership. The Lover embodies the unrestrained embrace of the life-force. It is a life-affirming and creative archetype but one that eschews order, sacrifice, and rational knowledge. It is not easily reconciled with the orderly world of the Queen and its concept of noblesse oblige or inborn sense of duty, and is the polar opposite of the virginal Faerie. It is suspicious of the knowledge of the Wise One, because she has transcended this phase. And it also is dependent on the other—the Lover seeks to empty herself out and merge or become the Beloved. Could we then conclude that there is no place for the Lover in the spiritual makeup of the female leader? Given the importance of all archetypes to a mature and balanced human existence it would be wise to reconsider the paradoxical relationship of the Lover to the other archetypes. Can there be a Lover-Queen?

The powerful Ishtar/Astarte/Aphrodite/Venus mythological complex is a strong archetypical current that runs deep from the appropriately named Fertile Crescent through the foundations of Near Eastern and Western Civilizations. India has equally powerful images of female generative power in Shakti, and her three avatars or embodiments of Lakshmi, Sarasvati, Parvati. The Chinese Ying-Yang symbol represents in graphic form the classic Jungian mysterium conjuinctionem. Thus, the Lover intrudes powerfully into humanity’s collective consciousness. If a leader is enthusiastic, connects with her followers and is capable of inspiring them to accomplish the difficult deeds, she is partaking of the energy made available by the Lover archetype.

Thus, as is the case with the male Lover, the female Lover gains enormous powers of transcendence but she, and he, are subjected to “the other” and therefore lack the freedom of the other archetypes. This is the power and limitation of the hierosgamos—the cosmic marriage of opposites. It is equally apparent that the other virtues resident in the Faerie and the Wise One need to rein-in the Lover’s “oceanic” exuberance and desire to transcend all limits in order to allow her energy its life-giving role without creating chaos in the realm. But, in a different sense, if the Lover recognizes the One worthy of her love and subjects herself completely to Him, the results can be amazing. It appears that the Lover is as essential to good Queenship as it is to mature Kingship.

Of these [four archetypes of transcendental feminine leadership], the Queen is the leader par excellence. But the Queen must encompass other qualities as well. The road to Queenship takes an aspiring leader through the path of the Faerie and/or the Wise One. These two in turn remain puerile or sterile without the life-affirming attributes of the Lover. Thus, if we reflect on the archetypes of the mature feminine they offer aspiring women leaders models that may serve as sources of strength to help them protect, guide, and inspire their followers.

Where do I find evidence of all four of these archetypes in this weekend's writings and my own experience?

The Faerie - First, immediately apparent is the faerie door (legendarily made by the Faerie Queen long ago) of this morning's waking dream vision. Second, in my own current life, I am in a time of faerie. To explain, the time of faerie is a time of separation from physical connection to any man. Having remained celibate as I wait for the arrival of my true bashert, I have been in a time of faerie by consciously determined choice and vow for two decades. This time of faerie of Celtic tradition parallels the time of niddah of Jewish tradition. It is a time for female solitude, middot improvement and development of devekut with the Divine. Third, in my dream, The Comet - one man was inspired to follow this Faerie during her time of faerie into Kingship and all the way to mountaintop summit - and beheld the comet. The comet kabbalistically symbolizes the soul-root of messianic consciousness. Consequently, the time of faerie (in Celtic tradition), and the parallel time of niddah (in Jewish tradition), are times of pure feminine development removed from masculine connection. Importantly, the times of pure feminine development are critically necessary for linkage to the soul-root of messianic consciousness and for both powers of Queenship and Kingship to actualize.

The Queen - Again, the faerie door, built by the Faerie Queen in Celtic legend, of this morning's waking dream vision recognized me. I am its maker. In yesterday's dream The Comet, I stood "the powerful woman entirely confident in myself to reach the mountaintop summit to find the the comet-palace, despite that 'they' might try to kill me." I became a Queen and another became a King whom the collective of our people followed. Not only did I become a Queen, but I became a Queen entirely confident enough in her own power to enable another's attainment of power beyond my own. I the Queen remained on the mountaintop, while he the King journeyed to Palace of the Comet to prepare and bring it home. We both couldn't go, one of us had to remain behind as a link to the Earth. It could have easily been the other way around.

The Wise One - Like the Wise-Queen of Sheba didn't fall in love with Solomon, neither did I fall in love with the one following me up the mountain to its summit. I relentlessly moved on in solitude despite his fears that I was crazy, that I was a fool, that they would kill me (us). I continued on unperturbed by any concern for his concerns. My singleminded ambition was to make it. I did not stop to comfort him, to soothe him, to assure him, to take note of his struggle - nothing. I don't even know who he is, let alone love him.

The Lover - I obtained and harnassed the transcendent power of the Lover archetype through the power of self-limitation (tzimtzum - creating a womb for new reality). I limited and subjected myself to the Other by remaining on the mountaintop while the King flew to the comet-palace. Importantly, the King's ability to fly to the comet-palace came into being precisely on account of the Queen's act of self-limitation through the Lover archetype, becoming a Lover Queen - as I am also a Faerie Queen and a Wise Queen.

Taking all this together, in witchcraft and Goddess spirituality, the Faerie corresponds to the Maid/Virginal aspect, the Wise One to the Mother/Maga aspect, and the Lover to the Crone/Transcendent Feminine aspect. The Queen herself corresponds to Goddess (both Immanent and Transcendent) in Wholeness, and is the archetypal essence of the Divine Feminine.

Meheitavel

י"ח בכסלו תש"ע
Shamash 20

Commentary of Vayishlach from Garden of the Dark Moon Jubilee - Meheitavel.

Power To Bend Events

י"ח בכסלו תש"ע
Shamash 20

In follow-up to The Comet, the 1940-style (יט ם) of the radio in the dream encodes the meaning - the power to bend events and to alter fate (יט). The letter mem (ם) is a signature letter.

The Comet

י"ח בכסלו תש"ע
Shamash 20

I just dreamt it, and I woke up to record it.

Following me - he thought I was crazy, a fool even, for going so far - they would kill me for going so far. But so far, I went - with an unequaled awesome singleminded determination. And he followed me there - and when he arrived at where I had gone, I was standing on a mountaintop summit high within the clouds of heaven.

He climbed up and peered up over the ledge from where he was climbing up, and there I was - standing a Queen - and upon the mountaintop summit directly opposite mine, there it was - he beheld it and was amazed - the comet never before truly beheld by mortal eyes! At the summit of the comet stood a mystical palace. The comet-palace spoken of only in myth truly existed! and never before had it been beheld by mortal eyes, yet now, he the Prince beheld it! He climbed over the threshold of the ledge leading to where I stood upon the mountaintop summit and stood beside me a King, beholding the sight with me. The palace structure stood erected upon the summit of a comet!

The palace had a strange name and odd shape. (In my awakened mind, the nearest idea I can find to the shape of it is of an old 1940's-style radio with the taste of raidho. The strange name written on the face of the palace eludes description, but it was as uniquely and awesomely magical as is the palace on the comet which no mortal eyes had ever beheld until now.)

Next thing I knew, now they, whom he had thought would kill me, were no longer seeking to kill me, but were helping him instead. He now had a new awesome spaceship, and they were cheering him on - for he had found the magical comet and the palace on it. He was on his way there, flying to where no man had gone before.

I woke up.

Magical Stones Of Quantum Wave-Particle Complementary

י"א בכסלו תש"ע
Shamash 13

Commentary on Vayetzei from Garden of the Dark Moon Jubilee - Magical Stones of Quantum Particle-Wave Complementary.

Giving Thanks

י' בכסלו תש"ע
Shamash 11

I am thankful for -

that I live in a country where there is no war
a family whom I love and who loves me
grandchildren who are happy to hug and kiss me
and that each is uniquely gifted in a special way
that my family lives near me
a warm home
a job I like
with a private office
in an elegant and well-kept facility
only 10 minutes driving distance away in the mornings
working with people I like
who are really ok that I am a witch
and who accomodate my need for privacy and quiet to work well
because I'm worth it
that I have a beautiful black wytchee car with gorgeous leather interior
losing over 30 pounds and getting my waist back
so I feel good and am healthy
health insurance
to be able to pay for my Singular
so that my allergies are under control now
and my blood pressure is down
that I'm nearly 49 and my skin still looks smooth
that I can afford a manicure regularly
that I like my looks basically
that I don't have to stress out about not being able to pay my bills
that I have a laptop to take with me when I travel now
that I have built up an amazing altar in my bedroom
that I have lots of handmade ritual items
that I have a large and exquisite natural crystal ball
and a bodhran drum
that my besom is extraordinary
that I can fall asleep to the sound of windchimes
even in the winter
that I'm intelligent
and artistic
...

The Othala Force

ו' בכסלו תש"ע
Shamash 7

Tonight's motzei shabbat rune drawing is othala, the O-rune of sacred enclosure, the 18th rune of my personal runerow. Edred Thorsson (Runelore) writes on the othala force:

Othala is the sacred enclosure. In it is embodied the central concept of Midhgardhr and the whole idea of "in-sidedness" and "outsidedness" so prominent in Germanic (and Indo-European) thought. The O-rune describes the ring-wall, the symbol of the enclosed land separated from all that is around it and thereby made sacred (ON vé). It is a sign of the site set apart for sacred purposes, the fane or hall. For the most part the othala force acts as a selective barrier. It prevents forces detrimental to the health of the interior from entering, but it actually conducts beneficial energies into its interior.

Amazing! that I should draw this particular rune for the first time in my bedtime ritual immediately following today's "temple"-related entries, namely: Chomah, A Vision of the Temple in the Night, Working Magic, Communion and Living Magically, The Science of Everyday Matters.

Related entries:

Runes 1-3: Transmission of a Sacred Secret
Rune 4: The Wholiness Code
Rune 5: Mysteries of the Staircase
Rune 6: The Ship of Safe Passage
Rune 7: The Ætheling
Rune 8: Communication
Rune 9: The Nature Of My Work
Runes 10-11: Wyrd Shema
Rune 12: The View From My Room
Rune 13: Thurisaz On The Falling Man
Rune 14: Power To Do It
Rune 15: Wyrd Preparation
Rune 16: Mother Of Manifest Blessing
Rune 17: By Force Of Destiny

Living Magically, The Science Of Everyday Matters

ה' בכסלו תש"ע
Shamash 6

In follow-up to all of today's entries (Chomah, A Vision of The Temple in the Night, Working Magic and Communion), and in contemplation of the importance of blogging - about dreams and other everyday matters - I observe that Carl Sagan speaks to us about the science of living magically through an observation on the life of Eratosthenes:

One day while reading a papyrus book in the library, he came upon a curious account. Far to the south, he read, at the frontier outpost of Syene, something notable could be seen on the longest day of the year.

On June twenty-first, the shadows of a temple column or a vertical stick would grow shorter as noon approached. And, as the hours crept towards midday, the sun's rays would slither down the sides of a deep well which on other days would remain in shadow. And then, precisely at noon, columns [and sticks] would cast no shadows and the sun would shine directly down into the water of the well. At that moment, the sun was exactly overhead.

It was an observation that someone else might easily have ignored - on sticks, shadows, reflections in wells, the position of the sun - simple everyday matters - of what possible importance might they be? But Eratosthenes was a scientist, and his contemplation of these homely matters changed the world - in a way, made the world - because Eratosthenes had the presence of mind to experiment, to ask whether, back here near Alexandria, a stick cast a shadow near noon on June the twenty-first. And it turns out, sticks do.

Simple everyday matters - a scientist has the presence of mind to ask, "of what possible importance might they be?"

Live magically, and ask with the wonder of a scientist, of what possible importance might the everyday observations of your life be.

Communion

ה' בכסלו תש"ע
Shamash 6

From my previous entry Working Magic, one particular quote from Carl Sagan:

What an astonishing thing a book is. It's a flat object made from a tree with flexible parts on which are imprinted lots of funny dark squiggles. But one glance at it and you're inside the mind of another person, maybe somebody dead for thousands of years. Across the millennia, an author is speaking clearly and silently inside your head, directly to you. Writing is perhaps the greatest of human inventions, binding together people who never knew each other, citizens of distant epochs. Books break the shackles of time. A book is proof that humans are capable of working magic.

A friend of mine recently brought to my attention the fact that many popular books on witchcraft and magic just rehash the same information (data) and contain nothing new. Yes, as she wrote, this is true - it is indeed sometimes very challenging to find a book containing new data to think about. Even the ancient texts of our ancestors, including the Bible, may rehash old data. For example, the Hebrew name of the book of Deuteronomy, namely Mishneh Torah, pertains to a retelling of the traditional legends.

Importantly, we must remember that books are not only useful for providing data, but also are useful for providing unique contacts with the spirits of the authors through whom even old data may acquire new and profound meaning. The magic isn't just in the data. Magic may be transmitted through the communion of souls.

Equal to the challenge of finding a book containing new data, is the challenge of finding communion and new meaning through old data - be it found in a stone tablet, a papyrus scroll, book, a video or on the internet.

Working Magic

ה' בכסלו תש"ע
Shamash 6

I've been watching the series Cosmos: A Personal Voyage the past few weeks. Gathered together from various internet sources, I really like these Carl Sagan quotes:

Somewhere, something incredible is waiting to be known.

When you make the finding yourself - even if you're the last person on Earth to see the light - you'll never forget it.

Skeptical scrutiny is the means, in both science and religion, by which deep thoughts can be winnowed from deep nonsense.

It seems to me what is called for is an exquisite balance between two conflicting needs: the most skeptical scrutiny of all hypotheses that are served up to us and at the same time a great openness to new ideas … If you are only skeptical, then no new ideas make it through to you … On the other hand, if you are open to the point of gullibility and have not an ounce of skeptical sense in you, then you cannot distinguish the useful ideas from the worthless ones.

Those afraid of the universe as it really is, those who pretend to nonexistent knowledge and envision a Cosmos centered on human beings will prefer the fleeting comforts of superstition. They avoid rather than confront the world. But those with the courage to explore the weave and structure of the Cosmos, even where it differs profoundly from their wishes and prejudices, will penetrate its deepest mysteries.

There are many hypotheses in science that are wrong. That's perfectly all right; it's the aperture to finding out what's right. Science is a self-correcting process. To be accepted, new ideas must survive the most rigorous standards of evidence and scrutiny. The worst aspect of the Velikovsky affair is not that many of his ideas were wrong or silly or in gross contradiction to the facts; rather, the worst aspect is that some scientists attempted to suppress Velikovsky's ideas. The suppression of uncomfortable ideas may be common in religion or in politics, but it is not the path to knowledge and there is no place for it in the endeavor of science. We do not know beforehand where fundamental insights will arise from about our mysterious and lovely solar system, and the history of our study of the solar system shows clearly that accepted and conventional ideas are often wrong and that fundamental insights can arise from the most unexpected sources.

I am often amazed at how much more capability and enthusiasm for science there is among elementary school youngsters than among college students.

If we long for our planet to be important, there is something we can do about it. We make our world significant by the courage of our questions and by the depth of our answers.

Every one of us is precious in the cosmic perspective. If a human disagrees with you, let him live. In a hundred billion galaxies, you will not find another.

Human history can be viewed as a slowly dawning awareness that we are members of a larger group. Initially our loyalties were to ourselves and our immediate family, next, to bands of wandering hunter-gatherers, then to tribes, small settlements, city-states, nations. We have broadened the circle of those we love. We have now organized what are modestly described as super-powers, which include groups of people from divergent ethnic and cultural backgrounds working in some sense together — surely a humanizing and character building experience. If we are to survive, our loyalties must be broadened further, to include the whole human community, the entire planet Earth.

Books permit us to voyage through time, to tap the wisdom of our ancestors. The library connects us with the insights and knowledge, painfully extracted from Nature, of the greatest minds that ever were, with the best teachers, drawn from the entire planet and from all of our history, to instruct us without tiring, and to inspire us to make our own contribution to the collective knowledge of the human species.

What an astonishing thing a book is. It's a flat object made from a tree with flexible parts on which are imprinted lots of funny dark squiggles. But one glance at it and you're inside the mind of another person, maybe somebody dead for thousands of years. Across the millennia, an author is speaking clearly and silently inside your head, directly to you. Writing is perhaps the greatest of human inventions, binding together people who never knew each other, citizens of distant epochs. Books break the shackles of time. A book is proof that humans are capable of working magic.

Imagine how different our world would be if those discoveries had been explained and used for the benefit of everyone, if the humane perspective of Eratosthenes had been widely adopted and applied. But this was not to be. Alexandria was the greatest city the Western world had ever seen. People from all nations came here to live to trade to learn, on a given day these harbours were thronged with merchants and scholars and tourists, it's probably here that the word Cosmopolitan realised its true meaning of a citizen not just of a nation but of the Cosmos, to be a citizen of the Cosmos.

The vast distances that separate the stars are providential. Beings and worlds are quarantined from one another. The quarantine is lifted only for those with sufficient self-knowledge and judgement to have safely traveled from star to star.

Chomah - A Vision Of The Temple In The Night

ה' בכסלו תש"ע
Shamash 6

Commentary on Toldot from Garden of the Dark Moon Jubilee - Chomah, A Vision Of The Temple In The Night.

Math Magic

א' בכסלו תש"ע
Shamash 3

Very cool!

Birthright Of A Natural Born Maga

כ"ח ברמחשון תש"ע
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In follow-up to my previous entry Eleh HaChukim - The Laws of Memory, in the book Cosmic Memory: Prehistory of Earth and Man, it is written:

The fourth Atlantean root race was preceded by the so-called Lemurian. During its development, events of the very greatest importance occurred with respect to the earth and to men. Here, however, something will first be said of the character of this root race after these these events, and only then will the latter be discussed. By and large, memory was not yet developed among this race. While men could have ideas of things and events, these ideas did not remain in memory ... their ideas had a quite different strength from those of later men. Through this strength they acted upon their environment ... Other men, animals, plants, and even lifeless objects could feel this action and could be influenced by purely ideas. Thus the Lemurian could communicate with his fellow-men without needing a language. This communication consisted in a kind of "thought-reading." The Lemurian derived the strength of his ideas directly from the objects which surrounded him. It flowed to him from the energy of the growth of plants, from the life force of animals. In this manner he understood plants and animals in their inner action and life. He even understood the physical and chemical forces of lifeless objects in the same way. When he built something he did not first have to calculate the load-limit of a tree trunk, the weight of a stone; he could see how much the tree trunk could bear, where the stone in view of its weight would fit, where it would not. Thus the Lemurian built without engineering knowledge on the basis of his faculty of imagination which acted with the sureness of a kind of instinct. Moreover, to great extent, he had power over his own body. When it was necessary, he could increase the strength of his arm by a simple effort of the will. For example, he could lift enormous loads by merely using his will. If later the Atlantean was helped by his control of the life force, the Lemurian was helped by his mastery of the will. He was - the expression should not be misinterpreted - a born magician in all fields of lower human activities.

Importantly, this excerpt describes a kind of consciousness where the ideas which exist in it are not bound in memory, yet nevertheless, act powerfully upon the environment. This kind of consciousness is called Lemurian. The kind of consciousness where ideas are brought into and bound in memory is called Atlantean.

In my writing Truth and Diligence, Candle In The Womb, I describe my experience of the integrative transition from Lemurian into Atlantean consciousness, where I write:

i could remember thinking a doing things, but my senses did retain not perceptions, although a smell would remain within me, marking their actuality. i was unable to fully form and hold onto the ideas that existed in my mind.

Ohhh! to remember the feel of my edges!

Like a hug all around me loosened. In an instant, my eyes could see. i was startled and amazed at the impact of remembering whole perceptions. i felt in existence.

Generating ideas with the strength to influence reality, the mastery of will - all of it is part of my birthright.

Eleh HaChukim - The Laws Of Memory

כ"ח ברמחשון תש"ע
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אֵלֶּה הַחֻקִּים, אֲשֶׁר צִוָּה יְהוָה אֶת-מֹשֶׁה
Bemidbar 30:17

Incredible. Reviewing the chapter From the Akasha Chronicle from the book (Cosmic Memory: Prehistory of Earth and Man) mentioned in the my previous entry (Lemurian Inner Earth Mystery), I find on decendents of the Lemurians, namely the Atlanteans:

In their [the Atlanteans] highly developed memory they possessed something which gave a special character to everything they did ... Memory is closer to the deeper natural basis of man than reason, and in connection with it other powers were developed which were still closer to those of subordinate natural beings than are contemporary human powers. Thus the Atlanteans could control what one calls the life force. As today one extracts the energy of heat from coal and transforms it into motive power for our means of locomotion, the Atlanteans knew how to put the germinal energy of organisms into the service of their technology. One can form an idea of this from the following ... think of a kernel of seed-grain. In this an energy lies dormant. This energy causes the stalk to sprout from the kernel. Nature can awaken this energy that reposes in the seed. Modern man cannot do it at will. He must bury the seed in the ground and leave the awakening to the forces of nature. The Atlantean could do something else. He knew how one could change the energy of a pile of grain into technical power, just as modern man can change the heat energy of a pile of coal into such power. Plants were cultivated in the Atlantean period not merely for use as foodstuffs but also in order to make the energies dormant in them available for commerce and industry. Just as we have mechanisms for transforming the energy dormant in coal into energy of motion for our locomotives, so the Atlanteans had mechanisms in which they - so to speak - burned plant seeds, and which the life force was transformed into technically utilizable power. The vehicles of the Atlanteans, which floated a short distance above the ground, were moved this way.

"The vehicles of the Atlanteans, which floated a short distance above the ground, were moved this way." Incredible. I dreamt of an Atlantean vehicle and I transmitted the mechanism of its maneuvering in Secret of the Peaceful Warrior. Preceding revelation of my Lemurian connection, came a hidden link to this revelation of my Atlantean connection. Both revelations are connected to the meaning and power hidden in the chukim of Torah. The chukim encode the laws of memory and the mechanisms through which the energy of the life force is transformed and utilized.

Related entry, my memory from the Akasha records - A Mystery Of Consciousness

Lemurian Inner Earth Mystery

כ"ח ברמחשון תש"ע
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In follow-up to my previous entry In The Cauldron Of Inner Tradition, an interesting synchronicity of note - also Wednesday of this week I received my Lemurian seed crystal pendent. On the ancient Lemurian race of occult legend:

It is believed that these Lemurian Seed Crystals were left by the Lemurians, an ancient race that seeded our planet eons ago; who departed from earth when conditions became too inhospitable and life could no longer be sustained. The legend goes that the vast majority of Lemurians left planet earth for other star systems while others elected to remain and continue to dwell in other dimensions of our "inner" earth's system, acting as guardians and protectors for the seed of our human race. It is these "inner" earth dwellers who are thought to be responsible for the discovery of these Lemurian Seed Crystals at this time. It is also thought that the Lemurian dwellers of "inner" earth continue to maintain a clear and conscious telepathic connection with their fellow Lemurians who traveled eons ago to other star systems through the crystals.

Read more about the Lemurian race in Cosmic Memory: Prehistory of Earth and Man

In The Cauldron Of Inner Tradition

כ"ח ברמחשון תש"ע
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In follow-up to my earlier entry Kindred And The Mesorah Of The Ancestors, two streams of consiousness are found inseparably together as one - the Hebrew phrase of introverting (involutionary) consciousness, namely ואל-מקרובימי ('and to my kindred') has gematriot of extroverting (evolutionary) consciousness:

37 + 408 = 445

The digit sum of 445 = 13, where 13 is the gematria of the kabbalistic Echad of Malchut in the Ein Sof.

13 further reduces to a digit sum of 4, where there are 4 letters of the tetragrammaton, the Explicit Divine Name.

Kindred And The Mesorah Of The Ancestors

כ"ז ברמחשון תש"ע
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Commentary on Chayyei Sarah from Garden of the Dark Moon Jubilee - Kindred And The Mesorah Of The Ancestors.

Bath & Body Works Boycott

כ"א ברמחשון תש"ע
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Every year for the past six years of her eight years of employment with Bath & Body Works, Wiccan Gina Uberti would take her vacation the week of Samhain and head for holiday celebrations in Salem, Massachusetts - a vacation already approved for nearly a year prior to the incident where she was fired for being Wiccan. In 2008, a new manager fired her, allegedly stating that she "will be damned if I have a devil-worshipper on my team."

Read the full article here.

Pagan Priestess

כ"א ברמחשון תש"ע
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In follow-up to Mystery of the White Bull and The Constant of Kinna Ha-Katuv, I note that I faced the tornadic waves of ocean water. The man I also faced opened his eyes while standing in the pouring rain. Interestingly, these two facts of trivia also connect to the mysteries of Lost and to my Torah commentary for last week, The Demon Dance.

The four-toed statue under which Jacob finds protection through time is the Mistress of the Innundation (particularly that at Khenu כנו), the horizon (the future), magic and mystical mountains, Taweret. Guardian of the north, fierce Taweret is an awesome protectress, both in the world and out of it simultaneously. Even standing on one foot.

in velt ouis velt

The Constant Of Kinna Ha-Katuv

כ"א ברמחשון תש"ע
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In follow-up to The Mystery of Urcanaan and Mystery of the White Bull, some notes to the mysteries of time travel and the masorah:

Last evening watching Lost, I was introduced to The Constant. The constant functions as an anchor for time-travelling consciousness and prevents the progressive physical side effects (leading to death) of time travel.

Interestingly, the episode of The Constant "follows (time-traveller) Desmond's 1996 consciousness in one continuous narrative between the two years." The year 1996 is the year I "returned to Torah."

Also interestingly, in the episode, the time traveller's eyes are examined (just as eyes are relevant in Mystery of the White Bull). The freighter in the episode on which the eyes are examined is named Kahana. Not unimportantly, yesterday I also added to my Twitter a person referencing Meir Kahane and a JIDL twitter site - both had added my Twitter site to their own. "JDL" is known from my past to have alot of "Kahanist" members, at least it used to.

In my entry The Mystery of Urcanaan (סתר ורכנען), I made a scribal change to the Torah text, transforming a curse into a blessing. Such scribal emendations are known, not only as tikkunei sofrim (corrections to the text), they are also known in the halakhic midrashim as kinna ha-katuv (כנה הכתוב), the constant original text.

The words Urcanaan and kinna are derived from a common sha'ar (two-letter gate of nun), that is - the letters kaf (כ, power to actualize potential) and nun (נ, Divine Feminine), where the letter hei (ה, actualization through thought, communication and action) of kinna (כנה) becomes the Hebrew letters ayin (eye, ע) and nun (fish, נ) to make the central word of Urcanaan (ורכנען), namely Canaan (כנען), the ancient pagan people.

Mystery Of The White Bull

כ' ברמחשון תש"ע
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Torah commentary on Vayera from Garden of the Dark Moon Jubilee - Mystery of the White Bull.

The Demon Dance

י"ג ברמחשון תש"ע
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A perfect Samhain Torah commentary for Lech Lecha from Garden of the Dark Moon Jubilee - The Demon Dance.

Wyrd Pi

ח' ברמחשון תש"ע
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In follow-up to my previous post, The Wyrd Numbers of Urcanaan, while researching the Lost numbers (4 8 15 16 23 42) I found this little tidbit:

Not found in the first 1,000,000,000 digits of pi. Interestingly, 4815162343 can be found at the 176,025,488th position of pi, and 4815162341 begins at the 734,468,718th position.

An interesting little piece of connected trivia (or not) ... a day or two before starting to watch the first episode of Lost, I dreamt a dream with an apple pie in it.

The psychic connections I seem to have to this series, to me at least, are interesting.

The Wyrd Numbers Of Urcanaan

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Yesterday, early shabbat afternoon, I wrote my Torah commentary on parashat Noach, The Mystery of Urcanaan. Immediately following that, I wrote Samhain Mitzvah Runes, designating runes for this mystery through which the darkness of a curse is transformed into the light of illumination. Bear with me for the rest of the story.

Just last weekend, my brother and his wife turned me on to a television series I had never seen before called Lost. Last weekend and this past week, I started watching episodes of the past five seasons to learn the story and prepare for transmission of the final and sixth season beginning May 2010. After the first episode, I was hooked. This series is an amazing mystical mythology. I love it. The mystical connections in it are real.

Thursday night, I dreamt of an ancient ever-changing mystical mechanical structure hidden in the ground from which I emerged through a normally impenetrable door in the ground penetrable through a secret code only known by a few. The next day, I didn't make the connection of this dream to the hatch found in Lost, but after Shabbat's precognizant blog postings and the episodes I watched Saturday evening right after making the postings, I saw the connection.

Motzei shabbat I watched the episode called Numbers - the numbers (4 8 15 16 23 42) in the episode are believed to be cursed, just like Canaan was believed to be cursed (in the Torah portion of my commentary) until I transformed that 'irrevocable' curse into a manifest blessing through the stones of transformation (וַיֹּאמֶר, אָר וּרכְּנָעַן) in my first precognizant blog post, The Mystery of Urcanaan. The 'cursed numbers' are revealed in Numbers to be written on the side of the mechanical structure hidden in the ground (like in my dream Thursday night), excavated by a few of the lost survivors.

Motzei shabbat, after watching the episode Numbers, I watched the episode Deus Ex Machina. This episode ended with "Locke disappearing into the jungle to return to the hatch. Pounding on the door and screaming in anguish atop the hatch, Locke laments what has happened. Suddenly the hatch window is illuminated, sending a shaft of light into the sky," - just like the uruz rune was illuminated, sending a shaft of light into the world in my second precognizant blog post, Samhain Mitzvah Runes!

Totally wyrd. The dream of the hidden mechanical structure and the blog postings occurred before I watched Numbers and Deus Ex Machina.

I emerged from 'the hatch' in my dream. I haven't yet seen the Lost episode where the hatch is opened, but in researching it, I see that through the hatch is found The Swan. In Celtic tradition, swans possess the healing powers of the sun and water. Swan also represents radiant divinity and feminine royalty.

The Witch-Kabbalist

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Last night, I dreamt.

At the end of the dream, I and some of the members of my team were inside a deep cave system whose entrance was closed to the general population of the area by thick metal-rock many-layered door with a secret magical lock and key combination. I knew the key-lock combination and where it was located in a hidden formation of the rock's walls. I had taken a few of us inside.

Our diverse group was different than the rest of the general populace in the area - like we were ancient travelers and outcasts who had come together as a group, settled and integrated among the locals, but who had each (clan or family or individual) still retained its unique distinction in some way. We were all unique from one another, but had been brought together by some unique and mutually recognized commonality as well. Once inside the cave system, a whole new secret community was revealed. One family among our group was Arabic. They had a light-haired family dog with them that the locals found annoying and wanted to get rid of, so their dog was brought inside the cave for protection as well.

Hunters from the general population, who had a clue that we were somehow different, too different for them to tolerate, were trying breach our cave. I began preparing my part of our defense.

I began melting quartz crystals with a special high-powered torch I had in my hand. The quartz was melting like clear-white candle wax into my collection pan.

I woke up.

Wiki on melting quartz crystals:

Fused quartz is manufactured by melting naturally occurring quartz crystals of high purity at approximately 2000°C, using either an electrically heated furnace (electrically fused) or a gas/oxygen-fuelled furnace (flame fused). Fused quartz is normally transparent.

Fused quartz can also form naturally. The naturally occurring form is usually referred to as Metaquartzite and is formed under metamorphic conditions. An increase in heat causes the crystals within the quartz to become fused together.

Along with the association of quartz crystal as the 'envelope' through which the long-life high brightness of halogen lamps is made, are its associations with metamorphic conditions, a low extinction rate, high thermal shock resistance, resistance to cracking under conditions of rapid and large thermal change, sheathing electric elements, fiber-optic communications, information storage and transmission, energy amplification and focus, and as a substrate for projection masks for photolithography.

Quartz also has the ability to split light into a spectrum. Through its use as an oscillator or resonator, quartz crystal is clearly associated with Hod (the reverberating sefirah as named by my Jewish ancestors which gives energy form) and sekhel shalem (perfect whole consciousness, original arrangement, sustained growth, balanced knowledge and mind, a magical-mystical adept, a kabbalist). Grian cloch is the Irish term my Irish-Celtic ancestors gave to quartz and means 'stone of the sun'. Meta-language and language wholistically as one is key to the mystery of form given by Hod. In my experience, given to me by my Germanic ancestors, uruz is now known as the rune of the sun. Given to me in the shamanic tradition of my Native American ancestors, quartz crystal is now my shaman stone of the sun.

Samhain Mitzvah Runes

ו' ברמחשון תש"ע
Phasma Priscus 7

The mitzvah runes to be inscribed (facing the letters left to right) on my Samhain ritual candle spell out the transformative words of the phrase shine Urcanaan (אר ורכנען).

The Mystery Of Urcanaan

ו' ברמחשון תש"ע
Phasma Priscus 7

Commentary on Noach from Garden of the Dark Moon Jubilee - The Mystery Of Urcanaan.

Eishet Shem Hameforash & The Magical Duel

Two Torah Portions

Eishet Shem Hameforash

Magical Duel

Secret Of The Peaceful Warrior

כ"ג בתשרי תש"ע
Blodlessing 24

In follow-up to Magical Disaster At The Sweat Lodge, last night I dreamt.

There were three major groups of nations present at the gathering of peace negotiations. One group was represented by a Muslim leader and another was represented by President Obama. I was observing. The outcome of the global peace negotiations would be decided by a series of tests each leader of nations would undergo. The leaders who survived all the grueling tests would be judged fit to lead the nations to peace.

The final two tests involved successfully navigating descent down a tall tower whose top reached high into the skies. Only those chosen by The Peaceful Warrior could and would survive.

The first of the two tests involved drop-flying a small aircraft nose first straight down the skyscraping tower's side and then immediately, hairbreadths before smashing into the ground, turning the aircraft at a right precision angle parallel to the ground and flying The Craft parallel to the land a mere hairbreadth above the surface of the land. Making the proper angle at the proper moment was impossible unless one was guided by wyrd destiny to do so. Only the soul of the peaceful warrior could successfully manage the maneuver. I transmitted the maneuver to President Obama and he flew the course precisely.

The second of the two tests involved climbing down the outside surface of the tower. The only tool one could use was one's body. It was impossible to succeed at this test unless one knew the secret of doing it. You see, even the very breath you breathe as you climb down will push you off the tower and to your death if you don't know the secret.

I knew the secret and I transmitted it to President Obama. There are two magical elements which come together to complete the whole secret. Interpret them correctly, and you will succeed.

First, there is an invisible outward-pushing notch in the tower which no one can see, not even you. It runs down the length of the left side of the tower (from the left side of the one who faces it as it is faced). You must make a complementary inward-pulling notch running down the left side of the front of your body with which you can 'lock' your body to the structure of the tower as you make your descent. I transmitted to President Obama how to craft the proper notch into the form of his body to fit the notch in the tower precisely. President Obama cut the notch precisely.

Second, there is a special breathing technique unique to the successful completion of this test. Breathing any other way, any other way at all, will create enough force with descent to push every climber, body locked or unlocked, off the tower and to his or her death. I demonstrated the unique breathing technique to President Obama. He practiced breathing and then, began breathing uniquely.

Nations, President Obama's wife and family, and a blonde-haired woman gathered in the middle of Main Street (busy with traffic) in Danville, IL, in the heartland of this land, opposite the Towne Centre to watch his warrior's descent from the tower of truth. The blonde-haired woman was greeted by President Obama's wife - they shook hands and prepared to watch the descent. The unknown blonde-haired woman had transmitted to him the ways to survive this test. The Peaceful Warrior suddenly appeared among us. The Peaceful Warrior was a ritually dressed Native American shaman who had passed over from the Otherworld to attend, watch and bless President Obama's warrior's ordeal. He had been the one who had shared the Secret of the Peaceful Warrior all along with me specifically to teach President Obama. President Obama descended the tower of test successfully, becoming through survival of the warrior's trial, a peaceful leader of many nations.

After the ordeal succesfully completed, the wife and family of President Obama, the blonde-haired woman, the Native American Peaceful Warrior, and some national security people got into a car. Driving down the road, thanks was given that the blonde-haired woman had been found worthy to transmit the Secret of the Peaceful Warrior to President Obama, and thanks was given that President Obama had been found worthy to receive it.

After thanks was given, it was time for The Peaceful Warrior shaman to return to the Otherworld. I laid my arm touching upon his back, giving thanks for his teaching, as he flew out the window of the car and returned to the Otherworld.

The dream scene changed. There was a group of men who had been watching the whole ordeal. The blonde-haired woman was a member among their group of equals. The group was like a cabal and coven. Though unusual, the woman was part of 'the gang of guys' because, as one of the guys remarked to the reporter reporting on it, "she's an awesome shiksa!" and they all affectionately laughed and nodded in agreement. Like a cabal and a coven, this gang of guys and a woman was a magical learning group, like brothers and a sister.

"Shiksa!?" I turned to face them exclaiming, swatting my hand at each one of them.

I woke up.

Related entry - Skatha and the Hero-Warriors of the Red Branch