Sunday, November 16, 2014

Outbreeding Enhancement Or Depression

Perhaps hybrid vigor (also known as outbreeding enhancement and heterosis) resulted for us from interbreeding (also known as crossbreeding and outbreeding) with Neanderthals (who had bigger brains than did archaic humankind *prior to* the arrival of the Cro-Magnons) - that is, we inherited improved biological traits as a result of interbreeding in this case - but that does not mean hybrid vigor resulted from *every case* of interbreeding. "Not all outcrosses result in heterosis. For example, when a hybrid inherits traits from its parents that are not fully compatible (contradictory instinctive patterns, for example), fitness can be reduced. This is a form of outbreeding depression." There is also such a thing as inbreeding depression.

This is why, historically, and even today among many ethnic groups there are strong feelings that children should "marry within the ethnic group" as the norm for the majority of people, and the group or tribe will only accept bringing people of other groups "into the family" (so to speak) who have traits likely to eventually benefit the group as a whole - in other words, those who will contribute good genes to the gene pool of the group. Rare but occasional inclusion of other people into the gene pool is aimed to minimize inbreeding depression and to maximize the possibility of outbreeding enhancement. Especially for ancient peoples, acquiring mates was not about romantic love (a fleeting human experience), it was a social responsibility toward ensuring and improving the survival odds for the group's descendents.

It's also possible that the outbreeding enhancement which gave rise to the Cro-Magnons was not due to interbreeding with Neanderthals at all but from interbreeding with some other archaic hominid that existed on a continent that now no longer exists (like Atlantis) or in Doggerland (now submerged under the North Sea).

Tuesday, October 21, 2014

A Seer's Job

Catch last night's episode of The Walking Dead? I did. In contrast to the season 5 premier episode, last night's episode is one I can relate to as pertaining to the human condition as opposed to a political ideology based on historical half-truths and outright untruths about what happened during world war 2 in Nazi Germany (to which this season's first episode was associated according to the show's producers). War is an ugly thing, but my view of what happened during world war 2 does not match the propaganda as to what happened. I do not demonize it as Hollywood misguidedly does demonize it. That doesn't mean that there aren't people like Joseph Mengele and Levi Aron in the human community, but these kinds of individuals are anomalies, not the rule - even for Nazi Germany. This is why I object strongly to the association the producers of The Walking Dead tried to make with Nazi Germany in the first episode of the season - they maligned the whole human race of homo sapiens by doing that to Nazi Germany. That being said, now on to the second episode. Human cannibalism.

I agree that there are people in the human population whose civilized behavior is a facade that can be stripped away - Joseph Mengele and Levi Aron attest to this.The only difference between Mengele and Aron is that Mengele lived in a society broken by war while Aron didn't. Mengele's sickness was enabled by war to escalate, while Aron's was not enabled to escalate in peace time America. Cannibalism is also reported to occur in Africa in recent times - a restaurant in Nigeria was shut down early THIS YEAR for reportedly serving human meat. So, without question, there are people among us who do horrible things to other people.

I think the revulsion to eating other human beings is what generally distinguished early modern humans from other hominids now extinct, including the Neanderthals. We know from the archeological evidence that Neanderthals and Homo Erectus were cannibals - they ate members of their own species. We know from the archeological evidence that Neanderthals ate early modern humans. We have genetic evidence that our early modern human ancestors may have also been cannibalistic. But, we changed as a species. We developed a revulsion to this practice of eating other humans and human types. A record of this pivotal change in the direction of human evolution toward social consciousness is preserved in the Jewish Torah in the Noahide laws, one of which prohibits eating the flesh from a living being, and another which pertains to a system of justice.

We know that our advantage over Neanderthals and other hominids of prehistory was the penchant of homo sapiens to create social structure and social bonds - to help one another to survive. Social laws help social groups to create a workable society - one where you don't have to worry that your neighbor or comrade is going to eat you instead of the mammoth your group is hunting - it's dangerous hard work to hunt a mammoth - you don't want to have to worry that your hunting partner might decide that it's an easier meal to just spear and eat you. You have to be able to trust the people with you, otherwise the society built to help you survive breaks down and few survive. Neanderthals lived in very small family groups, and though these small groups certainly hunted together, they never managed to create a larger society able to pass on knowledge between social groups. Neanderthals never managed to create this kind of larger cultural society, in my opinion, most likely due to their penchant for cannibalism. You can't trust your neighbor if he might just eat you, so a large society never evolved for Neanderthals.

Importantly as well to the development of a social consciousness in early modern human populations is the concept of evolving incarnate conscious awareness in early modern humans as a manifestation of the hybrid-vigor resulting from interbreeding with other human types. I believe that what DROVE US as a unique species toward greater social evolution (in contradistinction to the Neanderthals) was the expansion of consciousness we uniquely acquired from interbreeding. As I posted before, I remember my preincarnate journey into physical incarnation. One of my preincarnate memories involves genetic memory - the memory of personal past incarnations, of my own consciousness as an ancestor. Science has confirmed the existence of genetic memory.

One of my preincarnate memories is of preincarnately SEEING (like the ancestral völva of Germanic folk tradition I wrote about in my earlier post) the violence of archaic human prehistory and the penchant for cannibalism among human types who hunted one another. One memory of mine marks and records the boundary (as do the Noahide laws of Jewish tradition) when I believe homo sapiens as a species developed an evolving conscious social awareness. I believe that Jewish tradition preserved the record of the social structure which early modern humans imposed upon themselves in an effort to create greater social structures to improve survival and quality of life for survivors among our kind. I believe Germanic folk tradition preserves a record of the changes in consciousness which occurred which DROVE the creation of these social structures.

Homo sapiens decided to create a social system to improve survival and the quality of life for our species. The Noahide laws of Jewish tradition record this beginning of this system of self-regulating the behavior of our species - DON'T eat limbs from living beings, DO create a system of justice so that we can all live together without fear of one another thus improving the likelihood of the survival of our group. The Germanic folk tradition of the Völva tells WHY we did this. Because WE COULD CARRY THE MEMORY OF BEING HUNTED AND EATEN WITH US BETWEEN LIVES AND INTO THE NEXT ONE. We became aware of ourselves as being something more than a passing piece of meat. We exist beyond this physical plane of experience. In the beginning of our transformation from archaic human to fully modern human, in that time when we were early modern humans - hybrids between what we are now and what we were before becoming fully modern - we experienced the memory and vision I describe below which propelled us to say together as a species:

try as I might to rewrite the story, I cannot forget the truth
and some things can never be fixed

Cannibalism is something that cannot exist, it cannot be "rewritten in our memory of experience" to be something other than what it truly is, it cannot become fixed as a permanent feature in our human society because as many of us (the völva and other early modern human seers by other names) reported our memories to our groups in prehistory, "I cannot forget the truth and I will not allow it to continue in my group." Hybrid early humans recorded the WHY we changed, WHY we created laws regulating the behavior of our species.

This is the poem I wrote over 20 years ago (and as I've shared on this blog before), describing the horror which drove the TRANSFORMATION of our species from archaic human to modern human. This is a early modern human Cro-Magnon memory written in my biology, marking and recording the impetus for evolution of the species group (the also encodes the symbolism of Thor's Hammer - imposing structure upon conditions of chaos: THE THORN (þ)

from the mind inscribed before time
in a dreamlike primeval existence
before my life began, at your side,
I loved you
set before seeing, witnessing
the violent play of creation
rising jagged with twisting thorns
ascending toward there
wild and fierce the bloody storm from below,
a churning pit of cold fire and coal
dripping with pain torn from earth,
cutting edges
raging from a lawless horror,
a terror untamed upon the earth
spreading as a plague coming near
with powerful fury, iterating screams
reverberating with dysrhythm, the battering melody
shattering the noise of silence
in agony melding together,
into a cyclone of spiraling shrill despair
hopeless, the sound of an inky blackness,
line upon line writing
a writhing scroll, twisted with affliction,
death and blood everywhere
below the colorlessness of the sanctuary
where I stood, immobile in the sight
testifying, not forgotten, revealing
some wordless cry of terror
embedding beyond the throat,
becoming chained in the belly
burning my world, descending
into the hallowed depths of my heart
with no way to restrain it,
its direction of attraction
toward me the knife came to cut
please see me! I am here! I cried without sound -
to you as you watched it climb up
as you watched it climb up
with some curious, strange fascination
not seeing me, or disregarded, either way,
outside your direction of attention
as the rabid destruction erupted up the wall,
and all I could do to escape the blade
becoming broken, I turned away,
pulling myself in ... only to be thown away
thrown down, as a coarse grain
into the only history I ever knew, and I know
what you did, throwing me down to be ripped apart,
for those who would destroy me
why do you hate me - still you don't see me,
you don't hear me, and you don't care
try as I might to rewrite the story,
I cannot forget the truth
and some things can never be fixed

The record of this memory from Germanic folk tradition:

She that remembers, the first on earth,
when Gullveig they with lances pierced,
and in the high one's hall her burnt,
thrice burnt, thrice brought forth,
oft not seldom; yet she still lives.
Heidi (Heidr) they called her, whitherso'er she came,
the well-foreseeing Vala (Völva):
wolves she tamed, magic arts she knew, magic arts practiced;
ever she was the joy of evil people.

—Völuspá (21-22), Thorpe's translation

Why was she the joy of evil people? Because she turned us from (evil as we judged it for ourselves) cannibalism and drove our evolution (a joy to us) from archaic humans into modern humans.

Friday, September 12, 2014

European Clan Mothers

Many people know that I am a daughter of Clan Ursula (belonging to genetic maternal haplogroup U5b). The oldest extant European-specific motherline among modern humans, mtHg U is one of 7 European genetic maternal lines. If your motherline is of European descent, you belong to one of these 7 primary maternal haplogroups. Here is a short summary of the 7 European genetic maternal lines (sources - Wiki and The Seven Daughters of Eve):

Clan Ursula (mtHg U) - "Haplogroup U is found in 15% of Indian caste and 8% of Indian tribal populations. Haplogroup U is found in approximately 11% of native Europeans and is held as the oldest maternal haplogroup found in that region. A 2013 study confirmed previous findings that haplogroup U was the dominant type of Mitochondrial DNA (mtDNA) in Europe before the spread of agriculture into Europe. The age of U5 is estimated at 30-50,000 years. Approximately 11% of total Europeans and 10% of European-Americans are in haplogroup U5. In 'The Seven Daughters of Eve', this haplogroup, as well as Haplogroup U in general, is labelled 'Clan Ursula'. Sub-haplogroup U5 is believed to be the oldest single branch of Haplogroup U, hence the sharing of the 'Ursula' designation by both groups. Because of that, it is widely believed that it was this branch who then interbred with another ancient European race, the Neanderthals themselves. U5 has been found in human remains dating from the Mesolithic in England, Germany, Lithuania, Poland, Portugal, Russia, Sweden, France and Spain. Haplogroup U5 and its subclades U5a and U5b form the highest population concentrations in the far north, in Sami, Finns, and Estonians, but it is spread widely at lower levels throughout Europe. This distribution, and the age of the haplogroup, indicate individuals from this haplogroup were part of the initial expansion tracking the retreat of ice sheets from Europe around 10.000 years ago." This haplogroup is indigenous to Europe.

Clan Xenia (mtHg X) - "In human mitochondrial genetics, Haplogroup X is a human mitochondrial DNA (mtDNA) haplogroup found in Native Americans, Europeans, and Western Asians. Haplogroup X is found in approximately 7% of native Europeans, and 3% of all Native Americans from North America. Overall haplogroup X accounts for about 2% of the population of Europe, the Near East, and North Africa. Sub-group X2 appears to have undergone extensive population expansion and dispersal around or soon after the last glacial maximum, about 21,000 years ago. It is more strongly present in the Near East, the Caucasus, and Mediterranean Europe; and somewhat less strongly present in the rest of Europe. Particular concentrations appear in Georgia (8%), the Orkney Islands (in Scotland) (7%), and amongst the Israeli Druze community (27%). Subclades X2a and X2g are found in North America, but are not present in native South Americans. Haplogroup X is also one of the five haplogroups found in the indigenous peoples of the Americas."

Clan Helena (mtHg H) - "In human mitochondrial genetics, Haplogroup H is a human mitochondrial DNA (mtDNA) haplogroup that likely originated in Southwest Asia 20,000-25,000 YBP. Haplogroup H is the most common mtDNA haplogroup in Europe. Haplogroup H is found in approximately 41% of native Europeans. The haplogroup is also common in North Africa and the Middle East. The majority of the European populations have an overall haplogroup H frequency of 40%–50%. Frequencies decrease in the southeast of the continent, reaching 20% in the Near East and Caucasus, 17% in Iran, and Central Asia. Among all these clades, the subhaplogroups H1 and H3 have been subject to a more detailed study and would be associated to the Magdalenian expansion from SW Europe c. 13,000 years ago. Several independent studies conclude that haplogroup H probably evolved in West Asia c. 25,000 years ago. It was carried to Europe by migrations c. 20-25,000 years ago, and spread with population of the southwest of the continent. Its arrival was roughly contemporary with the rise of the Gravettian culture." This haplogroup is the most common haplogroup found among European-descendents today and is indigenous to West or Southwest Asia.

Clan Velda (mtHg V) - "Haplogroup V originated in the Near East. Haplogroup V is a relatively rare mtDNA haplogroup found in approximately 4% of native Europeans. Its highest concentration is among the Saami people of northern Scandinavia (approximately 59%), where its divergence time is estimated at 7600 YBP (years before present). It has been found at approximately 10% among the Maris of the Volga-Ural region, leading to the suggestion that this region might be the source of the V among the Saami. Haplogroup V is also found at higher than average levels in Cantabrian people (15%) of northern Iberia, and somewhat lower in nearby Basque people (10.4%). It also is found in particularly high concentrations (16.3%) among the Berbers of Matmata, Tunisia." This haplogroup is indigenous to the Near East.

Clan Tara (mtHg T) - "In human genetics, Haplogroup T is a predominately Eurasian lineage. Haplogroup T is found in approximately 10% of native Europeans. Haplogroup T is currently found with high concentrations around the eastern Baltic Sea. The geographic distribution within subclade T2 varies greatly with the ratio of subhaplogroup T2e to T2b reported to vary 40-fold across examined populations from a low in Britain and Ireland, to a high in Saudi Arabia. Within subhaplogroup T2e, a very rare motif is identified among Sephardic Jews of Turkey and Bulgaria and suspected conversos from the New World (Bedford 2012). Haplogroup T is also found in a Svan population from Caucasus (Georgia). Haplogroup T is uncommon in Africa and is absent from most populations there. Its highest frequencies are in two Semitic speaking peoples: the Amhara and the Tigrai." This haplogroup is indigenous to Eurasia.

Clan Katrine (mtHg K) - Haplogroup K has an estimated age of c. 12,000 years BP and appears in West Eurasia, North Africa, and South Asia and in populations with such an ancestry. Haplogroup K is found in approximately 10% of native Europeans. Overall mtDNA Haplogroup K is found in about 6% of the population of Europe and the Near East, but it is more common in certain of these populations. Approximately 16% of the Druze of Syria, Lebanon, Israel, and Jordan, belong to haplogroup K. It was also found in a significant group of Palestinian Arabs. K reaches a level of 17% in Kurdistan. Approximately 32% of people with Ashkenazi Jewish ancestry are in haplogroup K. The average of European K frequency is 5.6%. K appears to be highest in the Morbihan (17.5%) and Périgord-Limousin (15.3%) regions of France, and in Norway and Bulgaria (13.3%). The level is 12.5% in Belgium, 11% in Georgia and 10% in Austria and Great Britain. Haplogroup K has also been found in skeletons of early farmers in Central Europe of around 5500-5300 BC. It has long been known that some techniques of farming, together with associated plant and animal breeds, spread into Europe from the Near East." This haplogroup is indigenous to the Near East.

Clan Jasmine (mtHg J) -"Haplogroup J colonised Europe from the Near East in the late Paleolithic & Mesolithic. Haplogroup J is found in approximately 12% of native Europeans. Average frequency of J Haplogroup as a whole is highest in the Near East (12%) followed by Europe (11%), Caucasus (8%) and North Africa (6%). Of the two main sub-groups, J1 takes up four-fifths of the total and is spread on the continent while J2 is more localised around the Mediterranean, Greece, Italy/Sardinia and Spain. There is a high (19%) incidence of J1 haplogroup among the Polish Roma ethnic group which is ascribed to the founder effect. Within Europe, J is found in Ireland, England-Wales, Scotland, germany, Russia, Iceland, Austria-Switzerland, Finland-Estonia, Spain-Portugal, and France-Italy." This haplogrop is indigenous to the Near East.

So, there you have it - the seven primary ancestral Clan Mothers of people of modern European descent.

Sunday, July 27, 2014

Move That Monolith

The Dutch make good on their promise to end multiculturalism ... hail Halland!

The Netherlands (also known as Holland, Hoyland and Halland), another one of my ancestral lands, has actively rejected the drive toward the globlaist plan of monoculturalism.

I, Illuminati

Everyone who knows me knows about my claim to conscious experience (and continuous remembrance of this awareness) prior to its firm possession of my physical body a short time after birth.

Maybe I remember my experiences of preincarnate consciousness and journey into physical existence, not because of my Neanderthal or Denisovan ancestry (as I've hypothesized before), but instead, I have this anomaly of awareness because I am of the Collins bloodline. My mother's father's surname is Collins and he was a 32nd degree Freemason (often tied to the Illuminati). So it all fits - I am a descendant of the Illuminati Collins bloodline. And even better - the Collins bloodline has more occult power than both the Rothschild and Rockefeller bloodlines - is that not cool or what?

So now, I've just got to figure out how to use all of my occult power to wrest control of the world from the Rothschilds and Rockefellers.

[Evil cackle.]

Saturday, July 19, 2014

My Ancestors Guide Me

According to The Student's Manual of Ancient Geography:

...the inhabitants of the Scandinavian peninsula, who bore the general name Hilleviones, the Chief tribes belonging to these groups were located in the following manner ...

Now I have no doubt, with these two new synchronous connections to my dream (*students* and the *general name* for my book at first in the dream), that I am definitely on the right track and that my ancestors are guiding me down this path.

Hilleviones, Halland and Hylte

According to Lady of the Labyrinth (a Norwegian scholar):

... many of the German tribes had legends of a Scandinavian homeland, and many tribes did in fact separate in two groups during the Migration Age (beginning in the second century BC and lasting until the fifth AD), where the second group emigrated to the southeast – which is why Poland was so densely occupied by Germanic tribes. Thus it is entirely possible that we see a Scandinavian and a continental branch of the same original tribe, like we do with the Swedish Götar (Geats, Gauts) and the Central European Goths.

In 1883, Grimsby (“Nordisk Familjebok”) suggested that the Hilleviones were an early population of Halland in Sweden. If so, they could be the same as the Hallin tribe of the Scandza island, mentioned by Jordanes in 551 AD. Jordanes place the Hallin in Scandinavia. After having described the Andogit and Scredefennae of Northern Norway, he mentions one tribe of Suehi (possibly the Swedish tribe known as Svear) before he counts up several other tribes, among them the Hallin:


According to Tacitus, the Helveconae are one of the tribes belonging to a confederation of tribes known together as the Lugii, (there will be a later post on the Lugii). About the Helveconae is simply said to be among the most powerful Lugii tribes. His geographical description is usually thought to be referring to areas in Poland, although it could easily be understood as Norway or Sweden.[/quote]

[quote]The Goths and the Vandals (if indeed they are distinct) both are assumed to have come from Sweden. Many believe, without much evidence, that there is a connection to the Hilleviones of Sweden. The name can probably be segmented Helvec-on-ae, where the -on- is a Latin productive suffix used to generate people and place names. Helvec- might be further segmented as Hel-vec-, where -vec- might be “settlement”, as -ing would be “people.” As for the Hel-, there are as many possibilities ...

Hail my patroness Hel! 

Note in the map of Halland, there is a subarea within Halland called Hylte (which links to my feeling that the name was associated with the name Hoyt for some reason.


In follow-up to my previous post (Finding My Tribe), maybe the name in my dream was Hoyland (Holland-Netherlands or related to Halland-in Sweden)!

I was looking up ancient Germanic tribes and one that caught my attention was the people Hallin (of Halland in Sweden). Looking this up, I came across the information that Holland is also called Hoyland - which fits the letters in my dream really well.

Google also says that:

The surname Holland is of Anglo-Saxon origin, and is a locational surname deriving from any one of the various places in England called Holland or Hoyland, such as those in Essex, Lancashire, Lincolnshire and Yorkshire.

My Dad's genetic I-M223 fatherline is Anglo/Saxon-Viking-Germanic, so Hoyland is a very plausible possible link to the identity of my own ancient tribe.

This is so cool!

Google says of the surname Holland:

Toponomical surname indicative of ancestral origin in the Dutch region of Holland, the Netherlands, or the English region of Holland (Lincolnshire), or the English towns of Upholland (Lancashire) and Holland-on-Sea (Essex). It is also an Anglicized version of Ó hUallacháin (or Houlihan or Holohan) and is a common surname on the Beara Peninsula in southwestern County Cork, Ireland. It is also found in places where Beara immigrants settled, such as Butte, Montana and southeastern Massachusetts. 

Also, Holland (the Netherlands) is by the North Sea, and my Dad's I-M223 genetic fatherline is believed by genetic scientists to have arisen in Doggerland which was submerged under the North Sea when the ice Age glaziers melted. It all is fitting together quite nicely! So, my ancient fathers may have migrated from Doggerland into the area we now call Holland (and the Netherlands). The people Hallin of the area in Sweden called Halland may be related as well.

UPDATE - I've found out that in some old surnames, the terminal D is sometimes dropped - that may be why in my dream, I felt the name endsed with an "N", but that there may also have been one more letter that I didn't see (but felt might be present) - the terminal D! HOYLAN was the name of my book! 

Friday, July 18, 2014

Finding My Tribe

I'm really excited - I believe my ancestors are trying to communicate to me the ancient tribe to which I belong!

This is going to be a convoluted post, but I want to explain recent events that have happened (through which the "story of transmission" is being communicated) and also the mechanism by which I think this communication is being transmitted to me so that my experiences and the numinous power through which my "folk story" is being built from connections to these events is given such that recognition among others in my folk may be ignited (to both help me identify my tribe and to help others identify their tribes as well).

Before I go into all that, I want to put out there my conclusion - that the ancient tribe to which I belong / come from starts with the letter "H" and also has the letters "O", "L" and "Y" in it, and has a similar number of letters (or one more) in it as does the name "Harlan." I am also associated my tribe's name with the name "Hoyt" for some reason, although the tribal name isn't the name Hoyt (but may be related or similar to the name Hoyt in some way). My tribal name may also have a letter "N" in it at the end, but I'm not as sure about that as I am about the other letters. I am most certain about the tribal name beginning with the letter "H" (so this is likely why my patroness is Hela, and my birth letter is Hagalaz). Maybe something like Holboyn or Hoylbyn (but not necessarily exactly like these, as this full name part is foggy).

Anyway, the events with necessary details and the numinous power to drive the construction (by my ancestors) of my "folk story" in my dreams are these:

1. a Conan post by Steve (on a Asatru forum) which led to my dream of my transformation into a Valkyrie
2. another post about another Asatruar searching for his own genetic tribe and his own family's name Harlan
3. a RedIceRadio radio show that I listened to last night with English Asatruar Dan Rayner, who wants to awaken his folk
4. the Mjölnir Dan Rayner wears on the radio show's program banner - on Dan's facebook page (which I visited after listening to the interview), a commenter on this RedIce program FB post asked where Dan got the hammer he is wearing - Dan hadn't commented yet, but I sell one "similar" (if not exactly like) the one Dan is wearing, so I linked the guy to where (on my website) he can get a hammer like the one Dan is wearing (this highlight's the Law of Similarity or the metagenetic Law of Near Relatedness, as my family most recently came from England as is Dan an English-Germanic person).

So, these recent events in my life (as many dreams are constructed from details present in recent life) are the events which held many of the details and the numinous power necessary to fuel the construction of the dream through which my ancestors are trying to communicate to me the name of my ancient tribe.

Since historically most tribal affiliations are inherited through the father's line, I am assuming my own tribal affiliation is also one from my paternal ancestry. My dad's surname is Taylor, which is an English occupational surname - where occupational surnames are relatively recent inventions and do not identify the tribe. The tribe is not an occupation, so the name Taylor is not my dad's ancient tribal name - it must be something else other than an occupation (although occupations may be passed down through families as well, so the historical occupational name is not without its own clues).

My dream last night was this - I was in a very large university class - like the ones they hold in hall-auditoriums). We all brought a class-book in which to record our work for that class (like a lab book and/or a grimoire). The book each of us brought was named, each one we brought had a general name that could fit many people. My book (at least after I had recorded my work in it) had a general 4-word name - at first. After everyone had done the work for the class, we recorded our work each in our own book - only I ended up with a general book that another woman had brought into the class (as I had) and another woman ended up with my general book. It was the way it was supposed to be - the woman who had brought the book I ended up with had a different book now - we were all happy with the books we ended up with (the one in which our own individual works had actually been recorded).

We were to each be graded on the work in our book by the professor of the class. We all got into a line to make our appointments with the professor to have our class work graded - and as we did this, the names of our generally named books changed (at least mine did I know). As I neared the front of the line of students waiting to make appointments with the professor, the male "secretary" helping the professor to make the appointments for work-grading called out for the student with the booked named "Harlan" - I opened the front cover of my book to look again at the name of my book (which had been 4 words) - it had changed to a 1-word name. My book's name definitely started with the letter "H" and had the letters "O', "L" and "Y" in it and was similar in the total number of letters (or maybe one more letter, as I wrote earlier) as the name Harlan. It was something like Hoylbyn or Holboyn.

So, does anyone reading this know of an ancient tribe among our Northern European folk with a name like this?

Saturday, July 12, 2014

I, Valkyrie

I watched Conan the Barbarian last night before I went to bed. Conan the Barbarian is a movie based on the sword and sorcery stories of Robert E. Howard. There is magic in that saga, for after I watched the saga, I dreamt an "another story" hinted to at the end of the movie as to how a "Conan"-figure became king by his own hand ("but that is another story").

The gist of my dream. It was a very cosmic-feeling, symbolic and archetypal dream.

At some point in the past, my true identity hidden, I had become pregnant with the prince's (the Conan figure) child. It was otherworldly how it happened, and I really can't explain how, as soul mates, this had been accomplished, but nevertheless, I was pregnant with the king-heir-apparent's child and he didn't know it was me who he had lain with (although I knew it was me who had lain with the king to be).

Actually, neither he, nor anyone in the kingdom, the king included, knew it would be me who was mother to this star child of the Cosmos. They all thought it was someone else, someone with a known pedigree. I had no known pedigree to anyone's knowledge - my pedigree was hidden, like was Seigfried's (as he was fostered by a dwarf blacksmith after the death of his father). The royal family had waited a long time for "Conan" to father a child, for this person who had been chosen for him had been barren for long years.

Finally it was signaled in the stars that now a child had been conceived (of "Conan's line) who would make "Conan" king (as Conan could only inherit his father's throne and become king after he fathered a child). Everyone thought it was this other woman who had finally conceived. But it was not, it was me. I knew it.

Just as the Cosmos had revealed the conception, so too did the Cosmos compel that which played out next. Just as was "Conan", I was lifted into the Cosmos to meet "Conan" - we were to fight one another in hand to hand combat. As I ascended, I was transformed into a shining Valkyrie, with a shining sword and shining winged helmet (just as was the woman in the movie). I was to fight my match, "Conan". Only after battling one another to stalemate, would our union be sealed. As I was ascending, I knew everyone else expected this other woman to meet "Conan" on the Cosmic field of battle, but they were all going to be shocked (as would be "Conan") when I arrived.

I woke up.

Interestingly, a few days ago (July 10 to be exact) before I watched this move, I created a new oil for my witchcraft shop called STAR CHILD.What an awesome precognitive synthcronicity!

Dare to be true to yourself.