Pieces of Now

ז׳ בסיון תשע"א
Alban Heruin 9
Shavuot Day 2

Last night I dreamt, several connected dreams in fact, all seemingly different in symbolism, but each flowed seemlessly into the next.

I was in my 'house'. A murderer came upon me and hacked me to pieces. I didn't see the actual assault, but I saw pieces of the flesh of the left side of my head fly against the wall I was observing. The murderer was a 'US Marshall.'

I was a young mother. My 'young son' was in his bed (in my current bedroom), but didn't want to go to sleep because there was a scary female spirit in the room. I couldn't see the spirit he saw, but I believed him and asked him where the spirit was located in the room. I was going to drive her out. He pointed up near the ceiling and told me she was there. I flew like a spirit myself to the place where my son had said she was and began trying to exorcise her from the room, but she kept moving around - each time she moved away from me, my son would tell me where she was and I would move toward her again. Trying to drive her out, I told her she could never be fixed. Finally I saw her myself (she had dark hair) and then her spirit jumped onto the left side of my face and merged with me there. Okay then, I thought. She was trapped with me now, and I'm in control. She's in me and I'm in control of her. She couldn't fly all over the room anymore and scare my son now.

My 'young son', my 'husband' and I were outside in the yard. My husband was chasing a large mouse, it looked like a small rat to me, but my husband said it was a mouse. Okay then, I believed him. Even in the dream, I remembered the mouse I saw in my closet as a young girl in 1967. I hovered in the air, like on an invisible magic carpet, over the mouse so as not to touch it. I didn't want to touch it and become contaminated (in some way). My husband was trying to catch something (the mouse that looked like a rat, I think) and was hiding in the Tiger Lily bush at the northwest corner of the property like he was a hunter staking out prey.

My 'father' drove a semi-truck over a bridge and over the left side of an embankment (right off the bridge on the south side of town) to keep it from crashing into other cars on the road. The brakes had stopped working while on the bridge. The truck rolled to safe stop at the bottom of the embankment in a parking lot near the shore of the river.

I traveled back to before time, before the entire cosmos was created. I was pure consciousness observing. It wasn't dark, it wasn't light. There was nothing, but it was everything that could ever be and more. I restricted the mass of the packed full nothing I perceived and in the middle of my awareness a space emerged with things of creation swirling and floating in it - galaxies, a universe, a book, a city, a fountain, main street in my town, ... I was amazed that such little things came out side by side with immense things in this space in the midst of All Being. I wondered, back before the beginning, when in time these things would unfold into existence, but I knew they already existed, for I had already experienced them in the life that I have now (even though that life was not yet created in the place where I was). I paused in thought. Now is the only time that has ever existed. There is only now. The past is an illusion, the future is an illusion, time is an illusion. There is only now.

I woke up.

Ok, then. Now I have to figure out how to cast things into that cauldron in consciousness that I want to be, and how I want them to be. First thing, I want a very special cauldron. Now.

So mote it be. אמן

In The Cauldron Of Inner Tradition

כ"ח ברמחשון תש"ע
Phasma Priscus 29

In follow-up to my earlier entry Kindred And The Mesorah Of The Ancestors, two streams of consiousness are found inseparably together as one - the Hebrew phrase of introverting (involutionary) consciousness, namely ואל-מקרובימי ('and to my kindred') has gematriot of extroverting (evolutionary) consciousness:

37 + 408 = 445

The digit sum of 445 = 13, where 13 is the gematria of the kabbalistic Echad of Malchut in the Ein Sof.

13 further reduces to a digit sum of 4, where there are 4 letters of the tetragrammaton, the Explicit Divine Name.

Cauldron Of The Black Moon

ל' אב התשס"ח
Belz 2
Rosh Chodesh

forged without calculation
reverberating with eternal essence, the lifeforce
brewing namelessly under the nostrils, purifying recognition
some thoughtbare combination, a tasty transformation
within a witch's cauldron, over colorless flames darkly
simmering a stew of primeval mysteries
including everything, yet nothing yet
percolating in silence, an utterly female science
patiently pivoting tongs stirring that connection
deliciously delightful
singly unique
sustaining completely, from the timeless time to come
turning history
without equivocation



originally published by me at Walking On Fire

Coarse Grains Of Redemptive Blessing

י'ד בניסן תשס"ח
Annwyn 15

In follow up to Transformative Pesach Prophecy, several elucidating ideas emerge from Ceridwen's cauldron of transformative prophecy.

Pesach-Beltaine Connection

Pesach Sheni is May 19 (Iyar 14, corresponding to the time we count the 30th day of the Omer) and astrological Beltaine (Beltaine Sheni) is May 4 (Annwyn 30) this year of 5768. Consequently, both Pesach Sheni and Beltaine Sheni come together through a "time" value of 30.

Ceridwen is associated in Celtic witchcraft with Beltaine. Yet, Ceridwen delivered to me a prophecy associated with Pesach. Taken together, Ceridwen represents for me stepping above the time of both, transcendently joining together Pesach and Beltaine.

As a lunar goddess, Ceridwen is linked with blessings bestowed through Yesod into Malchut. Pesach Rishon this year is April 20 (Nissan 15). The full moon of the witches' month of Annwyn is called the Drawing Down The Moon full moon, also on April 20 (Annwyn 16), suggesting a time through which the redemptive blessings are bestowed is April 20, which is the date of both Pesach Rishon and the Drawing Down full moon of Annwyn.

Grains Of Redemptive Blessing

The blessings bestowed from Ceridwen's cauldron are redemptive, drawn down from the powerful full moon which marks redemption from Mitzrayim, which is Pesach in Jewish tradition.

In Celtic tradition, six sacred grains of spellcraft were brewed as a grael in Ceridwen's cauldron. In terms of middot (measures), 6 grains = 388.79346 milligrams.

388 is the gematria of למשיח meaning "belonging to Mashiach"

79346 represents the five letters ודגטז, where five identifies the Divine Feminine of both Binah and Malchut. The five letters have a combined gematria of 29 - the same gematria as a Torah word used in Bereshit 48:16 to bestow blessing upon both children of Yosef, namely וידגו meaning "and let them grow".

And Yisrael blessed them saying, "let my name be named in them, and the name of my fathers Abraham and Isaac; and let them grow into a multitude in the midst of the earth."

Taken together, Ceridwen's cauldron contains and "bestows the receptive" blessing "belonging to Mashiach" and "of Yisrael", suggesting that Ceridwen is the unified feminine archetype corresponding to masculine Yisrael. Importantly, Ceridwen represents she who bestows the blessing which ignites messianic consciousness, causing it to grow into a multitude in the midst of the earth, as waters cover the sea. Within the letter-sets of both blessings are the letters of the sha'ar (gate) דג, implying quick multiplication in great numbers.

The word וידגו (of Yisrael's blessing) begins with the letter ו, with a value of six, like the six grains of spellcraft brewed in Ceridwen's cauldron. Similarly, the letter-set ודגטז (of Ceridwen's blessing) also begins the the letter ו.

Yet differently, the word of Yisrael's blessing ends with a ו (the letter of connection) while the letter-set of Ceridwen's blessing ends with a ז (the letter of selection). Thus, Ceridwen's blessing represents the extension of Yisrael's blessing into manifest reality. Also, his blessing contains the letter י (a letter of projective energy, שפע), while her blessing contains the letter ט (a letter of receptive energy, קבל).

Ceridwen (Boudicca) and Yisrael (Yaakov) are parallel quantum coarse grains (one primarily an involutionary stream and one primarily an evolutionary stream of consciousness), who together, decohere consciousness into manifest history as described in my poem Coarse Grained Histories, Dialog With The Divine.

Related entry: Ceridwen Candle Dressing Oil

M'Chagim & The Cauldron Spiral Triskelion

ח' בחשון תשס"ח

In follow-up to my previous entry regarding my magic wand, where I note that the length of my instrument contains within it the power of sod ha-ibbur through the word m'chagim (מחגים), I'm reposting an old entry from Craftwork Of A Jewitch which explains the symbolism of the cauldron spiral triskelion within that blog's masthead. Interestingly, the word m'chagim is the letter gimel (ג whose number is 3) "surrounded" by 2 additional letters of "two" sides (מח-ים meaning "bring together into a messianic sea the dark and light faces of life") - this fact perfectly reflects the structure and feminine power of the cauldron spiral triskelion in my Craftwork blog masthead. אתהפכא חשוכא לנהורא

The cauldron-triple spiral triskelion in my masthead is a Celtic [1] symbol of the 3-fold aspect of the Sacred Feminine - as maiden, mother and crone. It represents the power of the earth (malchut), shapeshifting (transformation) and the "place" where Divine Inspiration (hashra'ah) and Knowledge (da'at Torah) are brewed. Psychospiritually, it represents wholeness through integration of mind (neshamah), spirit (ruach) and body (nefesh elokit) with one's Divine Image (the 2 encompassing circles - each circle with dark and light "faces", representing chayah and yechidah). פ

Correspondences:

Maiden Aspect - New Moon

birth & regrowth
new beginnings
inception, expansion
excitement, carefree erotic aura

Mother Aspect - Full Moon

love & battle
ripeness, fertility, fulfillment
stability & power

Crone Aspect - Old Moon

mystical power
rebirth & renewal
wisdom, repose, compassion

Footnote:

[1] My natural ancestry includes Celtic (maternal & paternal), Jewish (maternal) and Native American (paternal) bloodlines.

Wrestling, Redeeming & Sanctifying Truth

ג' בתשרי תשס"ח

The afternoon of the first day of Rosh Hashanah, I performed a Jewitch tashlich. At that time I cast the ashes of rituals from the past year into a swampy green cauldron pond in the woods.

As I was waking this morning, I had a powerful mind-vision of two primal goddesses arising from the swampy pond waters (which were waist high on them) where I had performed my Jewitch tashlich. They were wrestling and they arose wrestling, as if the act of wrestling caused the "arising revelation".

Simultaneous with the arising of the wrestling primal goddesses, I saw that the entire atmosphere became chock (חוק) full of dandelions releasing their seeds - so many that they looked like a whitish mist made of dandelion seeds being cast out from the place into the universe at large.

Magickally, dandelions correspond to the Hecate and David archetypes, the planets Jupiter and Saturn, the Hebrew letter tav (through Jupiter), the Ogham letter ruis (through Saturn), the element of air, the channel from yesod to malchut, shabbat consciousness, and the powers of divination/nevuah, manifesting desires and spirit-calling.

Dandelion in Hebrew is שינן, from the shoresh שנן meaning "focus", "precise instructional tool", "directed speech", and "sharpen". Importantly, dandelion comes to "sharpen" the Hebrew letter shin שין, representing the consciousness of mashiach ben Yosef, into the consciousness of mashiach ben David.

With the wrestling of the two primal goddesses of the cauldron-pond, the two meshichim are becoming one.

Interestingly, the Ogham letter ruis corresponds to the color red (Esau, David, Adam) and is the thirteenth (אחד echad = one, with a gematria of 13) letter of the Ogham alphabet.

To mark this Rosh Hashanah vision, I've just created a new original incense recipe - Cauldron Of Creation.

Distinctive Cover

כ"ח באב תשס"ז

This afternoon the dark moon is new in Leo, the lion. The Temple is referred to as "the lion". With a soul-quality of Chochmah (Wisdom), the lion symbolizes the intellectual experience of new intuitive vision, the Hebrew letter tet, and through tet, to the bed upon which one rests.

In Celtic mysticism, the goddess Ceridwen is the keeper of the Holy Cauldron of transformative inspiration and Wisdom.

Transliterated into Hebrew letters, Ceridwen is שׂרדון. From the shoresh, שׂרד meaning "being distinctive", the root is employed in Shemot 35:19 to describe the distinctive cover [1] over the holy place worn by the Kohen Hagadol. The suffix "ון" implies continuity of action, perpetuation and everlasting, eternal faithfulness [2].

Thus, the name Ceridwen is a name of eternal faithfulness which distinctively covers the Holy Cauldron and brings down new intuitive Wisdom and visionary inspiration.

In observation of the dark new moon in Leo this afternoon, I will be kindling a 7.5" X 2" herbally charged black pillar, inscribed with the words לשׂרדון בקדש, dressed with Witch's Brew oil and sprinkled with Delight incense, on my altar. A Celtic incense blend will be burned in parallel.

Footnotes:

[1] See the new distinctive cover I recently purchased for my bed, Tree of Life Tapestry.

[2] The Wisdom In The Hebrew Alphabet, R' Michael Munk

Related entries:
Perspective On Ceridwen Transliteration
Shamanic Vs. Modernist Mindset

Emerging Revelation Of Divine Benevolence

י"א באב תשס"ז

Today's Hebrew letter tarot reading was performed during the planetary hour of Venus with the waxing gibbous moon 90% full, nearing the void of course going into Capricorn.

The 3 letters in order:

tet-tav-yod טתי

These letters represent the word spelling (טית) of the Hebrew letter tet, except that the yod is in the third position in my reading as opposed to in the second position as with the spelling of the word tet.

Immediately, the tarot letter configuration brings to mind my dream this morning, Lily Power Plant.

The movement of the letter yod represents the misting water that hovered and spilled over in a controlled fashion from the edges of the covered cauldron waterfall, generating tremendous power. Tet represents concealment of Divine benevolence. Yod, my dream and this tarot reading suggests emerging revelation of Divine benevolence into my life and into my world through the path of tav, the final letter of truth-emet (אמת).

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Lily Power Plant

י"א באב תשס"ז

I dreamt.

As I was waiting for my tour of the waterfall, I picked up an information packet about a witch school that was also a nursing school. I was already both a witch and a nurse, but I was interested to connect with other witches. I put the information packet in my handbag after a quick glance, as it was time to go on tour.

I toured the waterfall which was a giant power plant. In a flying spiraling path, my touring party wound around the edges of and up the waterfall. Over the top of the waterfall, like a floating lid on a misting cauldron, sat a giant lily pad like the one I saw on Planet Earth (my favorite television show) yesterday evening which grows in jungle rain forests and has a pad width of up to 6 feet.

The pressurized water spilled out over the sides of the waterfall in a controlled fashion, generating tremendous power as it did this.

I woke up.

Hall(s) Connection - Point Of Bifurcation

כ"ח בניסן תשס"ז

An interesting point of connection to note between my dream this morning and the Virginia Tech massacre, also this morning - In my dream, there is one (banquet) hall, one kettle and an unacceptable action to divide the food onto separate platters. From this unacceptable action by those around me, I fled some harm associated with the separation, discerned immediately following removal of the food from the kettle to place it in circles (where circle is from the same root עגל as the golden "calf") onto separate platters. In the massacre, two separate halls were involved - a residence hall and an engineering building called Norris Hall.

The separate circles did not derive from Liorah Lleucu HaMasovevet (where masovevet is from the root סבב).

Black Thread Of לוא

ט"ו באדר תשס"ז

I dreamt.

I traveled with others to a gathering at the fairgrounds outside of a town. I was in the front passenger seat. Someone else was driving.

The fairgrounds had many booths representing many "outcast" peoples. There was a booth there for Israel as well. I was leaving behind "acceptability" to the townpeople of the town by leaving and going to the fairgrounds. I didn't care. I really didn't care. Not one iota. (This is connected to what happened at work yesterday. I didn't care there either. Their threats bounced off me like tiny bubbles. I went to the fairgrounds in the dream and I left the bad situation they had created for me in real life.)

After this, in another place, inside some kind of public room, a large piece of crumpled "whitish" paper maybe a foot or so in size came stealthily toward me in the air near but above the floor. I instinctually put out my left hand against it even though it didn't look apparently threatening.

Yet, it must have been threatening because automatically without commanding it, from the fingertip of my left little finger shot a black string like thick spider silk. It wrapped around the approaching crumpled paper repeatedly, forming an octahedron of encasing black string around it like prison bars. The black string which had shot from the tip of my little finger stopped the paper's approach in its tracks. The two parallel "vertical sides" of the octahedron were longer than the top 3 and bottom 3 "sides" (the diagonal and horizontal "sides").

When the black thread had first emerged from my finger, I had wanted to withdraw my hand - I thought I might be doing black magic. But, the person beside me said, "no, you have to let it play out." The black spider-like thread, though I wasn't controlling it, was a controlled force at a deeper level. The black thread didn't go anywhere but to bind up the crumpled piece of paper that had been stealthily approaching me. It was only "attracted" to the piece of seemingly nonthreatening, but clearly threatening, piece of crumpled paper. I let it play out.

At this point - the Hebrew letters LUA לוא became associated in my mind with the instinctual protective action of the black string. The automatic instinctual protective action is connected to these letters.

I woke up.

Clearly, appearances can be deceiving - the whitish (seemingly good) paper had "evil" intent (to harm me), while the (seemingly bad) black string had "good" intent (to protect me).

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Te'amim Mysteries Ancient Of Days

י"ג באדר תשס"ז

These are the results of the fourth tarot reading I've done on myself using my standard procedure, cards and spread. The data:

status post initiation of reversal and protection spell
performed 3/3/07 Adar 13, 5767
began at 2:38 pm, planetary hour Jupiter

moon data: 24 deg. constellation Leo, 11 deg. signe Virgo, 100% full moon

sun data: 15 deg. constellation Aquarius, 12 deg. signe Pisces

weather-snowing; mood-fair; health-tired
approaching total lunar eclipse in Virgo (5:17 pm)
Shabbat Zachor; Nicanor Day

S/Q - ten of swords (disillusioned and withdrawn)

position 1 - Hierophant (Taliesin) ה
position 2 - Hermit (Myrddin) ט
position 3 - nine of cups
position 4 - Moon (Lake Of Maidens) צ
position 5 - knight of wands
position 6 - Star (Branwen) פ
position 7 - eight of pentacles
position 8 - nine of pentacles
postion 9 - page of cups
position 10 - four of swords

p1 - relationship to current situation: guardian of knowledge

p2 - forces in my favor: withdrawal from outside world, reflection and contemplation

p3 - message from higher self: this time is a cauldron within which the future is brewing

p4 - subconscious preoccupation: memory and mysteries, increasing sensitivity to unseen forces

p5 - past influencing current situation: unique way of recognizing patterns in chaos

p6 - current relationship with others: inspiring and guiding

p7 - psychological state influenced by unemployment, knowledge and experience

p8 - influential unseen forces: patience, honor

p9 - hope for use of artistic abilities

p10 - current outcome: waiting, protection in withdrawal

There are 4 cards from the major arcana indicating very strong Divine direction from the universe of Kadmon. The 4 Hebrew letters הטצפ corresponding to the 4 cards of the major arcana have a combined gematria of 184 (מקדם), a digit sum of 13 and a final digit sum of 4. From these gematria, it can be seen that the direction from Kadmon (מקדם) is rooted in the echad of that universe and brought down through all 4 subsequent universes, Atzilut-Beriyah-Yetzirah and Assiyah.

Hebrew letter permutations:

צפה ט watcher over feminine yesod, protector of power to judge properly

פצה ט open to the mysterious meanings of the טעמים (cantillations, te'amim)

טף הץ "tap" is (writing) board in Aramaic => a righteous vessel to receive prophetic words

As noted above, the total gematria of the Hebrew letters of the 4 cards from the major arcana is 184, the same gematria as the word מקדם meaning "from Kedem". Micah 5:1 speaks of this sphere of highest Keter [1] associated with the partzuf Atik Yomin [2]:

But thou, Beth-lehem Ephrathah, which art little to be among the thousands of Judah, out of thee shall one come forth unto Me that is to be ruler in Israel; whose goings forth are from of old, from ancient days.

Footnotes:

[1] Sha'are Orah (Gates Of Light), R' Yosef Gikatilla (p. 362)

[2] see Yemei Kedem (Ancient Days) here.

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Purim Torah, Mysteries Of The Night

ג' באדר תשס"ז

לה Five sacred times fall out this year for this Jewitch on Saturday, 3 March. Each time is represented by one of five Welsh goddesses of Avalon (Isle of the blessed). (Goddess information from Avalon Traditions)

Shabbat - Blodeuwedd is the Lady of Initiation.

She calls us to cast off the garments of expectation and to peer into the darkness of the self to find, and ultimately live, our inner truth. She teaches us to fly where others would see us grounded. Mythological Sources for Blodeuwedd – The Mabinogion - "Math, Son of Mathonwy"; Hanes Blodeuwedd.

חזק חזק ונתחזק

Lunar Eclipse in Virgo - Ceridwen is the Lady of Transformation.

She calls us to enter into our darkness to seek out the seeds of our wholeness. She teaches us that the only path to wisdom is through trial and experience [1]. In Her Cauldron, the mysteries of death and rebirth are revealed, and we emerge to initiate the process once more. We ride the Wheel with our newfound insight and understanding, so that we may illume the next phase of our journey with what we have learned. Mythological Sources for Ceridwen: The Tale of Gwion Bach and Hanes Taliesin.

חזק חזק ונתחזק

Full "Worm" Moon - Arianrhod is the Great Teacher.

She holds the energy of the active principle. She is the embodiment of the Wheel, yet not Herself subject to it. She is the force of Bound and Rebound, the Karmic Lesson Bringer that brings the Universe into Balance. All cycles and time are within Her realm of influence. Arianrhod is the Source of Awen, the Divine Spark of Inspiration, although it is through Ceridwen that Awen is bestowed. Mythological Source for Arianrhod: The Mabinogion - "Math, Son of Mathonwy".

חזק חזק ונתחזק

Rhyfeddod Lleiaf o Rhiannon (begins at sundown) - Rhiannon is the Lady of Manifestation.

She calls us to stand strong regardless of the challenges to our truth. She teaches us to ask for what we need, and grants abundant and loving support to carry us through our dark times. Mythological Sources for Rhiannon: The Mabinogion - "Pwyll, Prince of Dyfed" and "Manawydan, Son of Llyr".

חזק חזק ונתחזק

Purim (begins at sundown) - Branwen is the embodiment of Sovereignty and is the Guardian of Avalon.

She holds the energy of the passive principle. She is the Whole, the Center, the Axis Mundi. The primal Feminine energy, all things emanate from Branwen. She is the Goddess of the Land Manifest, as well as the Spirit of the Land. On Avalon, Branwen was primarily consulted in matters dealing with Her Realm – that is, concerning the full tapestry of Avalon, rather than the individual stitches. She is the Goddess of the grand scheme of things, the broader perspective that allows the greater patterns to be revealed. Mythological Source for Branwen: The Mabinogion - "Branwen, Daughter of Llyr".

חזק חזק ונתחזק

Footnote:

[1] "No one is wise (in Torah) but the mistress of experience." - Akeidat Yitzchak 14

Note: Rhyfeddod Lleiaf o Rhiannon lasts for 3 nights, from sundown March 3 through dawn March 6. Purim and Shushan Purim last for 2 nights, from sundown March 3 through sundown March 5 - for a total of 5 nights (where 2 of those nights are "double nights") followed by 1 dawn.

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Athame, Finger Of The Endless

deep deep complete
creature of the night eternal
a touch divine, a bit insane, off the edge
plunging into a cutting clarity
relentless, wild
stark and undistorted
without echo, raw tradition
a serpent song, a scorpion tale
thirsting inside out, like a finger of the endless
casting kisses
from the heart of the dark

ויקרא למשה ולאהרן לילה, ויאמר קומו צאו מתוך עמי
She called to Moshe and Aaron by night and said, "rise up, come forth from among my people ..."
Shemot 12:31

artist of painting "Athame" unknown

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Da'at Torah, Cauldron Of Connection

Exploring my new tarot deck, it became immediately clear that at least four mythic archetypes have already made obvious appearances in my recent experience, both here (where the World-Universe card became my querent/significator) and in various dreams over the past several months.

Rhiannon (Tzipporah), Aranrhod and Asibikaashi (Spider Woman) have all appeared in dream journeys. Consequently, these three goddess archetypes are my guardian angels of sorts, forming a triple spiral cauldron “goddess energy” uniting together for some purpose. Aranrhod is the maiden aspect of the moon (yesod), Rhiannon is the mother aspect, and Asibikaashi is the crone aspect. Importantly, these Sacred Feminine archetypes have come together yesodically in my psycho-spiritual environment with purpose and have chosen me as part of that purpose.

Aranrhod is represented in Welsh tarot by the Wheel of Fortune card and the letter kaf כ.

Rhiannon is represented in Welsh tarot by the Empress card and the letter dalet ד.

Asibikaashi is represented in Native American tarot by the Devil card and the letter ayin ע.

The querent card, representing me the seeker, is the World-Universe card and the letter tav ת.

What do these letters taken together spell? An encircling crown (keter) of da’at כ-דעת. In other words, keter and da'at exist in simultaneous expression in this "tarot spread" brought forth into reality from my superconsciousness soul (as evidenced by the fact that the dreams and the tarot-blogquiz occurred prior to my acquisition the tarot cards). According to the kabbalah of the Ari, keter and da'at exist simultaneously in the universe of tohu.

Represented by 3 goddess archetypes, each feminine energy in turn, represents one of the three meanings of the word keter: “wait” (Aranrhod), “crown” (Rhiannon) and “encircle” (Asibikaashi). The querent binds them all together with the myth of Cadair Idris, ascends the mountain, and descends with the Torah of the Shechinah, the Holy Light of Tohu.

And Moshe entered into the cloud and ascended to the mountain ... Shemot 24:18

We can see the triple spiral cauldron nature of the feminine "moon" archetypes clearly evident in kabbalah. On the mysteries of Jewish femininity, R' Yitzchak Ginsburgh writes:

Every lunar month, the moon goes through a cycle of phases—from completely disappearing to full moon and back again. The zero-point, the point at which the moon disappears, is actually the eve of the new Jewish month (erev rosh chodesh). It is on this day that a woman can reach her inner sense of nothingness, or nullification, in the spiraling cycle that goes from somethingness to nothingness to somethingness, and so on. When we merit the revelation of the Mashiach, there will no longer be a diminishment of the moon, and the feminine (the “woman of valor”) will become her husband’s crown (eshet chayil ateret ba’ala); that is, the female will rise above the male and super-consciously provide guidance and nourishment.

The querent binds them all together (ateret hayesod, the source of malchut) into a crowning cauldron of connection, and brings it down.

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Asibikaashi & Sacred Dreamcatching

From my father's side of the family, I have Native American ancestry of the Cherokee (Tsalagi) and Potawatomi (Anishinabe) tribes. The Potawatomi are known as keepers of the sacred flame. This too, is my heritage.

The "sacred fire" consciousness bequeathed to me through my Native American ancestors contributes to the reality where I see the Hebrew word כבשן as "cauldron" (Bava Metzia 84a). The word כבשן derives from the root כבש which also can mean "spider". The two meanings "cauldron" and "spider" are linked via Native American sacred myth as well.

The sacred fire, the cauldron of creation, is intimately interwoven with the Native story of Asibikaashi (Spider Woman) and the origin of the dreamcatcher (asubakacin, net-like).

Not only is Asibikaashi a keeper of the sacred flame, she is the creatrix of creation and one who weaves the world into being each morning, filtering and catching the dew of one's nightly soul journeys (dreams, bawedjigewin) into the web of memory. Consequently, we can see the the "fiery cauldron" of creation and "spider" are not only connected through the Hebrew root כבש, but they are connected through Native American sacred myth as well.

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Mysteries Of The Flame

כבשן

The fire of a candle flame is a low-temperature partial plasma (Plasma Physics). A candle flame, as a low-energy partial plasma, is a subdued form of the high-energy complete plasma characteristic of the feminine "cauldron of mastery". Candlelighting (hadlakat nerot) is one of the 3 primary mitzvot entrusted to women. These facts taken together suggest that one of the "reasons" for the mitzvah of candlelighting is to provide a connection toward observing the command of Bereshit 1:28 - to subdue, transform and master the feminine energies of malchut (ha-aretz).

וכבשה


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Cauldron Of Mastery

Glowing blue plasma streaming upwards from the central electrode of a plasma lamp. (PlasmaPhysics)

Be fertile and increase, fill the land and master וכבשה it ... Bereshit 1:28

The hebrew word for cauldron כבשן comes from the shoresh (root) כבש meaning to "subdue", "master", "transform", "furnace where material disintegrates" and "spider" [1].

From the root כבש comes the keyword to the mitzvah to transform and master the land (ha-aretz, malchut) as commanded in Bereshit 1:28. Note, וכבשה in the pasuk begins with the letter vav ו and ends with the letter hei ה. Vav-hei וה is shorthand for the soul of mashiach (messianic consciousness) [2]. Consequently, the command is to transform וה into mastery ן, as evidenced by the transformation of וכבשה into כבשן.

Interestingly, recent details recurrent in my dreams includes the concepts of "plasma", things/people "disintegrating" as in a nuclear event, the presence of a nightrobe, and spiders. Indexing my dreams, I found that the two colors my nightrobe has taken in the dreams are pink and blue - like in the plasma pictured above.

Disintegration corresponds to the processes of purification ו and transformation ה, which precede "mastery" ן (active reorganization of structure).

In addition to the root letters, כבשן cauldron has a nun-sofit ן, where the final nun implies a perpetual continuity, like the threads connecting the details running throughout all of my dreams. In other words, the transformation and mastery emanating from the cauldron are ever-evolving.

All of these dream details taken together are signs pointing to the shamanistic presence of the power of the female "cauldron energy" in my life. Torah validates it.

In harmony with Torah, Celtic shamanism teaches that the cauldron כבשן represents:

the source of limitless food
the source divine knowledge, wisdom and inspiration
the source of the ability to revive the dead
the source of transformation and mastery of consciousness

From plasma figure below, we can also see how the root כבש also acquired the meaning "spider". The raw energy of the plasma below is harnessed and transformed in the plasma above.


Footnotes:

[1] Etymological Dictionary Of Biblical Hebrew, R' Matityahu Clark

[2] Studies In Ecstatic Kabbalah, Moshe Idel

(Plasma Energy)


רבי יוחנן אמר משיצרפם בכבשן ריש לקיש אמר משיצחצחן במים
Bava Metzia 84a (בכבשן "in the cauldron", Schottenstein-Artscroll)

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Meat, Milk & Nevuah - Changing Perception Properly

Negative mitzvah 187 tells us not to mix meat and milk. What's the message in this mitzvah?

Meat is from the shoresh בשר. Milk is from the shoresh חלב. Each root (shoresh) which comprises its respective specific word has a kametz (a vowel) under the first two letters of the shoresh. These two letters of each word are two she'arim (gates)¹. Consequently, we can see that meat and milk hold two gates which are not meant to be mixed. Kabbalah tells us that milk symbolizes life, while meat symbolizes death.

The vowel kametz pertains to the sefirah Keter.² Instead of mixing life and death, the two gates of milk and meat are meant to be transformed, leaving a singular gate into Keter, made of eternal life. The gate of eternal life is comprised of the remaining single letters of each word. That gate is רב (rav, see Shem Chai).

The gate of the Hebrew word for meat is comprised of בש, letters meaning "with sin" (with a dot over the left vav of ש) . In other words, it is important that the operation be carried out "with sin", as opposed to "with shin" (with a dot over the right vav of ש). This represents the extreme feminine pillar of Gevurah (the entire feminine array of the Gevurot), within the realm which may give birth to evil. The operation is one completely performed in the Gevurot - herein lies the key to the mystery of parah adumah ritual. It is an utterly female science, devoid of masculine Chesed. It is the Chesed a woman must find within Gevurah, unmixed with Chesed of Chesed. In other words, to elevate Gevurah to Binah, to transform judgment into understanding, and to move her center of consciousness from the middot to the mochin, a woman must do this operation alone.

The gate of the Hebrew word for milk is comprised of the letters חל, letters shared by the foul-smelling incense spice chelbenah (galbanum). Chelbenah represents the pure source and root of evil within the "wholeness" of the ketoret. In this state, חל of Gevurah (of the 7 lower sefirot) is joined to Binah through the ב of the shoresh and pure "beholding" sight (נה-הן) of the soul, thereby "raising it" back into the realm of holiness as it exists centered in the sefirah Binah (of the 3 upper sefirot).

This operation transpires in Gevurah-Binah and within the Gevurot. The kametz of the she'arim of milk and meat inform us that the Divine Will within the sefirah Keter performs it.

The shoresh of milk (חלב) means to change and to convert to nourishment. The shoresh of meat (בשר) means heralding, to bring a message, and a perceptive person.³

Taking all this together, we can see that the prohibition regarding not mixing meat and milk pertains to rectifying, transforming and raising the source of evil back into the realm of the holy. The feminine operation is carried out in Binah, the entire array of the Gevurot, and directed by the Divine Will in Keter.

Importantly, the mitzvah also pertains to nevuah. The prophetic messages of a Divine Messenger are not kosher until the transformative operation of the feminine force has been completed. In other words, the "mixing" of meat and milk cannot be done normatively (in Gevurah of the 7 lower sefirot). Rachel (ר-חל) is the catalyst which raises chel (חל also meaning "the best to enhance nourishment") of chelbenah (חלבנה) to Binah (בנה) where it is transformed into a feminine aleph (ל-אה) of expression.

Meat and milk essentially transformed through the ketoret of Binah, may only be raised following transformation, into Keter. The kametz tells us this. Rav (רב) transforms to בר, meaning "with clarity". And now we can understand why prophetic messages can't be made mixed with meat and milk; i.e., they mustn't originate in Binah (בש) or the Gevurot. They must originate b'reish, בר, in Keter (where the Gevurot and Chasidim "exist" in Singular Unity) to effect a proper change in perception.


Footnotes:

¹ Sefer Yetzirah 2:4
² Kabbalah & Meditation, page 185, R' Aryeh Kaplan
³ Etymological Dictionary Of Biblical Hebrew, R' Matityahu Clark

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האBrew Cauldron

every soul is a witch ... R' Avraham Abulafia, Chayah Olam Haba

forged without calculation
reverberating with eternal essence, the lifeforce
brewing namelessly under the nostrils, purifying recognition
some thoughtbare combination, a tasty transformation
within a witch's cauldron, over colorless flames darkly
simmering a stew of primeval mysteries
including everything, yet nothing yet
percolating in silence, an utterly female science
patiently pivoting tongs stirring that connection
deliciously delightful
singly unique
sustaining completely, from the timeless time to come
turning history
without equivocation

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