Welcome Makenzie!

י״ד בחשון תשע"ב
Phasma Priscus 17

My granddaughter Makenzie was born today 11/11/11, weighing in at 5 lbs 10 oz, 18 inches long! She is my mother's 11th great grandchild. Four elevens!

‎5 lbs 10 oz, 18 inches long = 5 + 10 + 18 = 33 = 11/11/11

In The Cauldron Of Inner Tradition

כ"ח ברמחשון תש"ע
Phasma Priscus 29

In follow-up to my earlier entry Kindred And The Mesorah Of The Ancestors, two streams of consiousness are found inseparably together as one - the Hebrew phrase of introverting (involutionary) consciousness, namely ואל-מקרובימי ('and to my kindred') has gematriot of extroverting (evolutionary) consciousness:

37 + 408 = 445

The digit sum of 445 = 13, where 13 is the gematria of the kabbalistic Echad of Malchut in the Ein Sof.

13 further reduces to a digit sum of 4, where there are 4 letters of the tetragrammaton, the Explicit Divine Name.

Deep Divine Inseparably Whole Royal Soul

כ"ב טבת תשס"ט
Grael 23

Gematria (numerology) on and magic connected to the title of my blog, Garden of the Dark Moon Jubilee (weekly Torah commentary from the unique perspective of an eclectic witch):

I made my first blend of Magical Jericho perfume yesterday on Shabbat afternoon, during the planetary hour of Saturn with the third quarter moon 53% full. In practice, there are 53 Torah portions in the Garden (גן = 53) of The Dark Moon Jubilee (היובל = 53). The Dark Moon (היצא = 106) of the Divine Feminine (כאלהים = 106) which emanates up from the Holy Deep between the divided portions of good and evil, draws them up together ('rectifies' and 'elevates'), and wholly unites them harmoniously into One Royal Soul (נון = 106).

Note: In kabbalah, 'royal' soul pertains to the state when all disparate elements and levels of one's soul become fully harmonized and actualized together, becoming neither simply good nor evil, but rather 'complete', 'whole'.

Rare Passion, Precision, Clarity

Rare Passion, Precision, Clarity

כ"א אלול התשס"ח
Belz 23

In follow-up to my post Mabon - Tam Z'Man, A Perfect Time, note the two Hebrew letters which embrace the Ogham letter muin in the graphic which favors the witch's expression - tav (associated with Mabon) and chet (associated with the Divine Feminine power of the witch through the run and return of the Lifeforce) - have a combined gematria of 408.

This prophecy (זאת) of the Divine Feminine is wholy united (חִשֵּׁק) with pure passion (חשק), in triple portion ...

... of which, there is no question.
R. Shneur Zalman of Liadi

Note: Each of the three Hebrew words above has a gematria of 408. The Hebrew word in the middle (חִשֵּׁק) is a rare word, just as my Noble Name Myfanwy is a rare Welsh name meaning "rare, fine one". The name Myfanwy is One Unified Name expressing three explicit interwoven aspects of the Divine Feminine with rare passion, perfect precision and pure clarity.

Hishtavut - Her Sound In The Garden

כ'ו באייר תשס"ח
Mab 27

Erev Shabbat (counting yet not counting yesod of yesod - or 41 days which is 5 weeks and 6 days of the Omer - by both the Ari and the Gra), a long line of tornadic thunderstorms rolled through the midwest. In some of the surrounding counties hailstones the size of golf balls came down, Doppler Radar 4x reported live on channel 10 last night. Several tornadoes touched down. In Indianapolis, CNN reports this morning:

At least 14 people were injured late Friday night as a severe thunderstorm with at least one possible tornado ripped through Indianapolis' east side and other nearby counties.

Buildings were heavily damaged at the Falcon Point apartments on Marietta Drive, off 38th Street and Mitthoeffer Road.

About 150 people from the complex were evacuated to John Marshall Middle School.

Foxnews reports that no deaths have resulted from the severe tornadic storms that rolled through the area last night. That 150 people were evacuated to the Middle School is particularly interesting, because this is what happened to me last evening.

What would the Shabbat storm tell me?

During the height of the storm in my area, I prepared and dressed my Shabbat candles, one of which was a stone charged, herbally charged earth element green pillar candle. Carved with mystic symbols, dressed with my own blend of Ceridwen oil, and handrolled with a special faery blend of botanicals, I brought their flames to life.

Then, I went to get a stick of dragon's blood incense. Only, after picking up the package of dragon's blood, I decided I wanted to use a stick of Witches Brew instead. Opening the drawer to one of my herb cabinets, I pulled out a package of Witches Brew stick incense. I have several packages of Witches Brew stick incense. I held for a moment the first sealed package I had picked up in my hand, then replaced it back into the cabinet drawer, picking up a different package of Witches Brew that had been taped closed. Not this one. Exchanging the packages for a second time, I returned to the first package I had originally picked up, opened it and pulled out a stick of Witches Brew incense.

אב with a gematria of 3, restoration of the broken vav of shalom.

The incense-containing ends of the incense in packages of Witches Brew are not visible. One chooses an incense stick by the bare wood ends that rest near the opening of the package. The Witches Brew incense stick I pulled out was split several inches up the grain of the wood on the now-double (like Shabbat loaves joining 7 heavens with the ark of the covenant in the core of the earth) ended incense-bearing end of the stick. In other words, the bare end was whole (one) and the incense end was split (two). Both lengths of the split bore the Witches Brew blend of botanicals. I lit both ends simultaneously in the earth elemental Shabbat candle flame and placed the incense stick smoldering side down into the Celtic triquetra smoking bottle style incense burner on my altar.

My shamanic alphabet divination consisted of 3 Hebrew letters and 1 Ogham letter.

First, around 8:22 p.m., using my standard and rather simple procedure (where I do not see the 3 letters I am selecting from among 22 otiot), I pulled out 3 Hebrew letter cards, in this order:

קלכ

With a gematria of 150, the word means 'your sound' as found in Bereshit 3:10 - "and I heard the 'sound of your voice' in the garden."

Then, also according to my simple standard procedure (where I also do not see the 1 letter I am selecting from among 20 feda, each fid pyrographed into one of my 20 Ogham staves), I pulled out 1 Ogham letter stave:

Nin - the letter of support, connection, feminine power and writing for clarity and contract. It can also mean "fork" (like my Witches Brew incense stick was "forked" at one end). A fork is a bifurcation within chaos with the power to radically change the course of reality and history.

In Ogam, Weaving Word Wisdom, Erynn Rowan Laurie writes on nin:

[Nin is a fid of] weaving together individuals and energies into a greater tapestry of cooperation and peace. In Gaelic terms it expresses a concept akin to the Lakota phrase mitakuye oyasin or "all my relations". Nin is a fid of relationships, both familial and conceptual.

Relationships with others also bring obligation as well as support. Where you are supported, you are also in a place to provide support to others who need your assistance. Nin is the fid of a friend.

Nin's magic is that of weaving and community creation. It can be used to help bring people together for a common cause, and is good for working on peace projects and other tasks that bring disparate people and communities together. Its link with letters and contracts means that it can be used in workings for clarity and understanding in written communications and to help keep legal proceedings in a clear and cooperative space.

With the celestial current, this fid is one of clarity and communication. It suggests harmony and peace in relationships, and speaks of friendship, cooperation and common cause among diverse people. Nin brings connections through communication, and urges you to look for deeper meaning. Nin's link with writing and contracts by necessity brings a connection with the law and the establishment of social order through legal means.

Legally whole peace of rare strength.

Nin corresponds to the ash tree and the herb nettle.

Nettle cloth is stronger and wears better than linen, though fewer fibers can be gleaned from nettle than from flax.

In Ogam, The Celtic Oracle Of Trees, Paul Rhys Mountfort writes on nin/ash:

Ash is a check on peace, for from it [the ash tree] are made the spear shafts by which peace is broken [or restored].

Erynn and Paul both teach that according to Celtic tradition, ash/nin corresponds to 'the contest, boast or flight of women.' Consequently, the contest of women can break peace apart or women's weaving can bring it together into a freedom song of flight. The reality of whole peace or broken quasi-peace/war is given over to the Divine Feminine, manifesting through the collective soul of Womankind.

Paul writes further on nin/ash:

Nin is the ash, a great and sacred tree in Celtic mythology ... presiding over the processes of transformation and manifestation.

This ogam is linked to fate. This does not mean that destiny is iron-cast, but points to the unique fate-path that you have to pursue in this world - one which, although it contains many possible options, is singular to you and no one else. Nin counsels you to regard the continuous unfolding of events as signposts, prompting and guiding you on your journey.

It also challenges you to take up the wand of manifestation and make reality anew for yourself. Positivity, creative visualization, ritual and spellcraft are all instruments of manifestation you may wish to draw upon.

One of ash's greatest features is the massive height to which the tree grows; up to 150 feet. It has quite a sheer trunk with widely spaced branches, and this pole-like appearance contributed to its association in Celtic and Nordic thought to the axis mundi: the central column and axis that supports the sky. As such, it also appears as a type of bridge between the earth and heavens.

Ogam wands were originally made of ash, and the root word nin means 'letters'.

In both cases [of illustrative myth stories shared in the book] we see a symbolic transformation or rite of passage from being controlled by fate to having it in one's own hands. From this flow nin's associations as a tree letter of empowerment in matters of transformation and destiny. In drawing the nin, it is as if you have been handed a magical tool of ash with which to work your will in the world.

I carved the letter nin into my Jewitch wand (the two forms of the letter shin already carved into it at the wand's initial creation), a tool of destiny within my hands, here now in this post with real-world and earthy correspondences to:

* magical letters of creation and transformation

* shins of chochmah (300) and binah (150-150), distinct yet as one

* the middle pillar, ha-emtsa

* hishtavut, magical-mystical balance (nin/150 - קלכ/150) and achieving an immunity to curses

* double-loaved challah, tikun and transformation of evil into holiness

* transformation of a 'curse' (קלל) into a 'blessing' (קלכ)

* restoration of the Divine Feminine

* restoration of the Kohenet Tzedeket (axis mundi, tzadikim nistarim)

* unification (height of nin and gematria of קלכ equals 300/shin)

* restoration of the broken vav of peace (the halved, broken wand of Pinchas transformed into a messianic split middle vav of the Hebrew letter shin)

By this time after carving my wand, the fury of the storm had passed over, but it was still raining heavily and thunderous outside, with lightning dancing across the dark skies. I went outside, felt the magic of the fiercely gentle wind in my face, and let the cool rainwater pour over me as I walked widdershins (holding the essential power of Dark Light) 3 times and 4 upon the wet sacred ground where I walked barefoot like a point of connection joining the entire expanse of heaven with the center of the earth. I felt the soft current of connection sparkling most intimately through the soles of my feet - the heat of the heart of heaven joined to the heat in the womb of the earth as they collided together in the wet cool grass against my skin.

Wholy awesome!

Kept in a black resin pentacle box at the face of my altar when not in ritual use, I slept with my spirit cord around my waist this Shabbat night last night.

Related entry:
Shalshelet HaKabbalah: Weaving A New World, The Filled Nine

Holy Holy Holy Host

ח' באדר ב' תשס"ח
Raven 9

Tzav, Pakod, Meumah - Holy, Holy, Holy

In Unblemished Mitzvah I brought down the idea that the vulnerability of meumah to blemish (mum) is neutralized by the presence of tzav (command of mobilization), and that materiality neutralized of potential blemish is actualized through the endless action pakod. Remembering.

Interestingly, as mentioned in the earlier entry, meumah and tzav each have a gematria of 92. The digit sum of 92 is 11. Eleven is the number of Temple incense spices corresponding to the rectification of Tohu (the state from which the vessels may shatter and become seemingly disconnected from Wholeness), the elevation of Tohu back into the realm of Holiness, and the "distillation and transformation of all corporeality and physicality into supernal luminescence."

Torah instructs us not to duplicate the Temple incense compound for personal use, lest s/he be "cut off" (shattered and seemingly disconnected). In other words, the duplication of meumah implies that bringing down the power of meumah without tzav (bringing down something from something), may shatter the personality, while the power of meumah tempered with tzav (bringing down something and nothing), does not shatter the personality. The personality remains whole in the case where the 92-compound meumah is not itself duplicated, but tempered through a different 92-compound, namely tzav.

Tzav tempers meumah by adding it's own digit sum of 11 to the 11 of meumah, bringing down the whole essence of the 22 Creation Letters of the aleph-beit.

Thus, meumah is not duplicated for personal use, it is completed in a wholistic bodily realization (a Host) of Intelligent Creative Consciousness.

Importantly, with respect to the upcoming observance of Purim, the word-set tzav-pakod-meumah corresponds to the "holy, holy, holy" descent of my soul through all contractions of the created world, while yet still remaining bound to the Divine Essence.

Unblemished Mitzvah

ח' באדר ב' תשס"ח
Raven 9

In Treasure From The Hidden World, in analysis of my natal birth chart, I wrote that the "water" flowing through my soul is an unblemished flowing treasure of the hidden world; that is, Consciousness flows through me as it existed before the shattering of the vessels which occurred in the world of Beriyah, the first world of nature "distinct" or apparently "separate" from the Divine. In other words, the heavens and the earth declare and testify my individuality to be a clear conduit for Divine Awareness, a realized tzelem of the Divine Above Nature, a צלילות of flawlessly lucid clarity.

In kabbalah, the unblemished hidden world is known as the world of nothing (ein, אין), as opposed to the revealed world of something (meumah, מאומה). The Torah story of the akeidah (binding of Yitzchak) informs us that "meumah" is the source of spiritual blemish (a mum).

Meumah has a gematria of 92. Interestingly, there are 92 naturally occurring elements in nature, the world of something.

In contradistinction to meumah, 92 is also the gematria of tzav (צב) which means "command" and "mobilize". Tzav describes Pure Action of immaterial Consciousness, before it enclothes Itself in the natural world of 92 elements - as discussed in my entry, Mitzvah Written In The Stars (Go! and Remember!), and described in Truth And Diligence, Candle In The Womb. Tzav is that which speaks forth the ability to do.

To be clear, pristine meumah is not "blemished". In the process of taking on the materiality of "something" (meumah), Consciousness is vulnerable to becoming blemished via the shattering of the vessels. Consequently, I suggest that vulnerability of meumah to blemish is neutralized by the presence of tzav.

In support of this idea, the combined gematria of meumah and tzav is 184, the gematria of pakod (פקד), meaning remember.

Torah Temimah

ל' באדר א' תשס"ח
Raven 1

More on my natal birth chart.

There are 4 astrological points in the zodiac houses corresponding to the element of Air. They are:

Neptune, 17 times the mass of Earth - yesod, tov (טוב), gematria 17

Venus - kaf (כ), gematria 20

Chiron, meaning "the healing hand" - yad (יד), gematria 14

Mars - gimel (ג), gematria 3

The total gematria of the one Air element is 54, the gematria of Dan, and the number of parashiyot in the entire Torah. I was born in a city named Danville during the month of Tevet.

Treasure From The Hidden World

כ'ז באדר א' תשס"ח
Keolwulf 28

In Shechinah & The Mystery Of Zero, I noted that my astrological natal chart contains zero points in the zodiac houses associated with the element of Water (corresponding to the world of Beriyah, the world from which the mythological fall initiated). In A Mystery Of The Pardes, I noted the Divine Presence of two letters yod (stellia) in the zodiac houses associated with the element of Fire (corresponding to the world of Atzilut, the hidden world).

These two entries together suggest that the "water" flowing through my soul is water originating from the hidden (טמן) world of Atzilut (which is whole) as opposed to from the impure (טמא) world of Beriyah (which is blemished by the shattering of the vessels). This idea is further supported by the the facts that:

1. the shoresh טמן, in addition to meaning hidden, also means treasure [Mishlei 2:1-6]

If you recieve my words, and lay up my teachings with you,
So that your ear attends to wisdom, and your heart inclines to discerment,
If you call for understanding, and lift up your voice for discernment,
If you seek her as silver, and search for her as hidden treasure,
Then you shall understand Divine Awe, and find Divine Knowledge,
For the Divine gives Wisdom, and from his mouth comes knowledge and discernment.

2. mem, the Hebrew letter corresponding to water, in at'bash gematria transforms to the Hebrew letter yod, where two letters yod are the Atzilutic stellia found significantly in my natal chart.

Thus, the water flowing through my soul is a treasure flowing unblemished from the hidden world.

Shechinah & The Mystery Of Zero

כ'ה באדר א' תשס"ח
Keolwulf 26

In my previous entry, HaLeviah On The Boundaries Of The Universe, I noted that in my sidereal whole natal chart there are zero astrological points in the zodiac houses associated with the element of water, corresponding to the world of Beriyah (the world initiating the mythological "fall" or "shattering of the vessels"). Further, I noted that there are 9 Hebrew letters which comprise the idea of "zero" (nekudat ha-efes), namely נקודת האפס.

These 9 letters have a combined gematria of 700 - the absolute value of nun-sofit (the final nun). Collecting the 9 letters of nekudat ha-efes into a single vessel, nun-sofit thus creates the archetypal pattern of my "Beriyatic" soul as being a "pure flowing" (שת with a gematria of 700) extension of the Infinite Ein Sof and Shechinah. Importantly, the single Beriyatic "point of nothing" remains whole (tam) as "zero" in my natal chart. It is not shattered.

Sod Ha-Ibbur, Turning History

ח' בחשון תשס"ח

Elucidating further on my entry at Craftwork Of A Jewitch, my simple wand looks like the one pictured. I harvested it last winter as it soaked in the snow near the lilac bush that grows right outside the window of the room I had as a little girl (and during the time of the epiphany).

As a snow-soaked water-oriented instrument of the earth, my wand carries a powerful synthesis of earth and water elemental energies. This powerful energy is represented by the Hebrew letter mem (מ, ם). Through mem (see link), my wand has the following correspondences:

Concept: The springing up of wisdom from the well of the superconscious.

Meaning: Water; a perfect imperfection.

Shape: A reservoir, with a slight opening in its lower left corner. The final mem: A completely enclosed reservoir.

Number: 40.

Space: Earth.

Time: Winter.

Soul: Lower torso, specifically the abdomen.

Quality: Love expressing itself like water.

Archetype: Mashiach ben David.

Channel: From netzach to hod.

Made from lilac wood, my wand has further correspondences to feminine power, Venus and again, the element of water. It's magical properties include protection and exorcism of negativity and evil. In other words, it functions to guard the integrity of the energy it directs.

It has no adornments other than the magical carvings I have made into it. Measuring 10 and 3/8 inches long from point to point, the wood of the slender instrument is kept supple by treating it periodically with Feminine Clarity oil.

The 10 3/8 inch length of my wand contains the strengths of the encompassing souls: yechidah (י yod, 10) and chayah (ח chet, 8). It also contains the strengths of the 3 (ג gimel) personal souls: neshamah, ruach and nefesh. All these levels acting with unity as one instrument brings out the Holy Voice of Shabbat Consciousness, neshamah yetzirah, ruach hakodesh.

The 10 3/8 inch length of my wand contains the power of all the letters of creation: 10 + 3 + 8 + 1 (the im hakolel, the entirety of instrument) = 22 (letters of the aleph-beit).

The 10 3/8 inch length of my wand is the gematria (21) of the Divine Name, Ehyeh אהיה.

The 10 3/8 inch length of my wand contains the gematriot of all time – past (היו, were Bereshit 6:4), present (היו, be Shemot 19:15) and future (אהיה, will be Shemot 3:12).

The Nephilim were on the earth in those days … Bereshit 6:4 (yod)

She said to the people, “Be prepared, after a 3 (gimel) day period …” Shemot 19:15

For I will be with you and this is your sign (chet) that I have sent you … Shemot 3:12

The letters of the length of my wand using messianic reverse vision become chet-gimel-yod (חגי), meaning “my festival” and “my turning of time”. So appropriate is this wand for itta hatafsaret, Liorah Lleucu HaMasovevet.

The 3 letter-numbers (חגי) of my wand's length plus the two letters mem (מם) of it's water-earth correspondence make the word m'chagim (מחגים) - "of the turning of the festivals" (Celtic and Jewish). Sod Ha-ibbur.

M'chagim has a gematria of 101 = יצא (issues forth)

A river issues forth from Eden to water the garden ... Bereshit 2:10

So much destiny within a wand picked up one day from the snow.

Her Hands In Herstory

כ"ב באלול תשס"ז

In follow-up to my previous entry, Dark Heart of the World, regarding the 19 metre passage into the ancient Temple of Life of Newgrange:

The passage and chamber of Newgrange are illuminated by the winter solstice sunrise. A shaft of sunlight shines through the roof box over the entrance and penetrates the passage to light up the chamber. The dramatic event lasts for 17 minutes at dawn from the 19th to the 23rd of December.

As are the triple spirals engraved throughout the Temple symbolic of the Divine Feminine, so too are the numbers 19 (Eve) and 17 (the gematria of "tov"-good, characteristic of the introspective "womb" Hebrew letter tet ט) symbolic of the Divine Feminine.

Interestingly, another gematria found in the numbers also points to Her.

The Divine Feminine "sun" of tevunah penetrates the darkness from December 19-23. The numbers comprise a "passage of time", namely 19, 20, 21, 22 and 23. The sum of these (ה) five "expressively feminine" numbers is 105, the gematria of a Hebrew word for "her palm" (כפה) and "her projective beauty" (ייפה importantly with two letters yod, symbolizing the Divine Name).

The ancient Temple of Newgrange still stands today in amazing wholeness as a witness to Her Endurance, year to year. The Hebrew word ימימה for "year to year" also has a gematria of 105.

וְשָׁמַרְתָּ אֶת-הַחֻקָּה הַזֹּאת, לְמוֹעֲדָהּ, מִיָּמִים, יָמִימָה
Thou shalt therefore keep this ordinance in its season from year to year. Shemot 13:10

Aleph, Etzel & The Magic Chanukah Oil

כ" באלול תשס"ז

I dreamt.

It was medieval times. A small ship of young non-military soldiers was on its way to help those on land, but as the ship came nearer the land, it was met with military resistance sent out by some on shore. There was some sort of civil war occuring on land and these who had come to help the entire people were being fired upon. The ship had also been boarded - there was some hand-to-hand combat occuring as well.

The battle was ferocious and those in the ship knew their situation was critical. They would all die if they didn't have some help soon, very soon. A flare sent from one group of those on land was seen in the sky over the ship. One young soldier fighting for his life felt hope at seeing this flare. He thought help was on the way. Those on land knew they were here and were coming to help them, he was thinking.

I felt sick feeling this soldier's hope and seeing the hope in his eyes. I followed the thread of hope to see where it led.

It led to a powerful witch - the lover of the soldier's commander. She was a bad witch. The relationship between the commander and she was not healthy. It was obsessive in a bad way. She and he together were malignantly sociopathic, singularly focused on taking from one another without regard to any consequences. She didn't care about the impending doom shadowing over those under her lover's charge. She was entirely selfish, even with her lover. They both took from one another. And even though the energy generated between them was extremely powerful, it was misdirected. And somehow, that energy was the source for what was happening to the young soldiers on the ship. They would allow the soldiers to perish to satisfy themselves.

The witch had brought a gift for her lover - a vial containing a rare primordial one-of-a-kind magic oil. There was no other in existence like it. The witch had found it. She was bringing it to her lover in exchange for satisfaction. Now.

Despite that her lover had a responsibility to those soldiers on the ship. She was evil. And he was evil. Now.

I was sick. I'm not sure, but I may have momentarily penetrated into what I was observing, to hide the vial of oil from the two before before I woke up, so neither one of them could find it to use it.

I woke up.

This dream pertains to the event described in this post at DovBear by Jameel, Refusing Orders (see my comments to it also).

I am connected through my chotimah (aleph of emunah) to the 16 unarmed Jewish Etzel soldiers who died that day (as described in Refusing Orders).

The connection to "medieval" times is found in the gematria of aleph (with a value of 1000) X 16 (the number of unarmed soldiers who perished) = 1600.

The vial of magic primordial oil in my dream is the pure miracle oil of the Chanukah story.

Holy Moon

י"ג באב תשס"ז

Today's tarot reading is also connected to the tet-nun phenomenon described earlier which unites opposite manifestations of Divine Providence in that the reading was performed under a waxing gibbous moon 95% full.

The digits of 95, 9 and 5, are the digit sums of the gematria of each of the relevant letters, where tet = 9 and nun = 5.

The moon operates on a 19-year cycle with respect to the calendar and the sun. The 19th letter of the aleph-beit is the letter symbolizing holiness, kuf (ק).

Consequently, not only was the moon under which today's tarot reading was performed, resulting in union of Divine manifestations, 95% full, it is holy as well.

House Of Shechinah

ו' באב תשס"ז

In another level of my dreams last night, all around me in some earthly but Divine realm, big houses and estates were being uprooted and thrown about in the air through the action of some celestial storm. My humble house was in the middle of all of the chaos.

At first, I feared one of the large houses would land on and crush my house, with me in it. It was almost as if the large houses and estates were being uprooted by powerful otherworld beings for the purpose of trying to crush me. In other words, it was not the owners of the houses causing the mayhem - the owners of the houses and estates being thrown about were human like me. No, it was otherworldly beings doing this - trying to get at me. Unable to get at me directly, they tossed other peoples' houses at me hoping they could "get at me" indirectly through those houses and estates.

But, they couldn't. The otherworldly beings had aimed at the "water" in my backyard pool at the base of an embankment which had piled up with each attempt to hurl a house at me. But, my pool was dry (יבש) for the season. The houses and estates were somehow "stopped" by an invisible wall at the edge of my property through the presence of dryness in my pool. On account of the firm resistance of the dry bed (like the sea bed of the exodus) of my pool, the destruction could not penetrate my house nor into the yard surrounding my house, where I abide (ישב). I also saw the expression of relief on the face of the owner of one house as it was prevented by the invisible wall surrounding me from being thrown alive into the death which awaited him had his house been thrown into my poolbed. He thanked me for having the protective wall around my property and saving him from certain death.

This part of the many-layered dream occurred prior to the part with the 4 marked angels in it.

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Message From Ehyeh

ו' באב תשס"ז

I dreamt a many layered-dream.

In one part of the many-layered dream, 4 men approached me. Each one had a mark engraved like a frontlet (Devarim 6:8) on his forehead. They said they had come to help me.

This is the symbol I saw upon the forehead of each one:

It reminds me of the seals of the planetary angels of Sefer Yetzirah (chapter 4) and of the angelic alphabet some kabbalists use, although this particular symbol doesn't look like any specific symbol I've seen before in books (although it does resemble Poseidon's trident) [1]. This symbol is a composite of the letter tet (ט) and two vavim (ו, one up and one down) and has a combined gematria of 21, the same gematria as the Divine Name, Ehyeh (אהיה). I saw the symbol 4 times, on the foreheads of 4 "angels" who appeared as men, representing the 4 universes of created reality (atzilut, beriyah, yetzirah and assiyah).

The 4th multiple of 21 is 84, the same gematria as Hanoch (חנוך), the angel Metatron.

Footnote:

[1] Poseidon is the Greek god of earthquakes, i.e., earth-shaking like in my dream-vision Storm Brewing and in the Manhattan explosion as described in Sympathetic Telepathy.

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Bat Ayin, Chozeret B'Teshuvah

כ"ח בתמוז תשס"ז

Today, the shabbat containing the lifeforce of Tammuz moving with messianic consciousness, is my father's 70th birthday. Seventy is the gematria of the Hebrew letter ayin (ע).

R' Yitzchak Ginsburgh teaches regarding ayin:

The Ba'al Shem Tov teaches us that whenever the Hebrew word ein (spelled: alef, yud, nun), whose literal meaning is "no," appears in the Torah text, by changing its vowels to read ayin, the implied negation becomes transformed into a positive assertion. Ayin means "nothing," referring in Kabbalah to the Divine nothing from which all reality -- something -- is continuously recreated. The consciousness of ayin is identified by the Ba'al Shem Tov to be the source of the Jewish soul (based upon the rabbinic phrase, ein mazal l'yisrael, "Israel is under no astrological sign," which he reads ayin mazal l'yisrael, "the Divine nothing is the soul-source of Israel").

Best Laid Plans Of Mice & Men

כ"ו בתמוז תשס"ז

Today's Hebrew letter tarot reading was carried out during the planetary hour of Mars with the waning crescent moon 8% full. The 3 letters, in order were:

samekh-vav-tav סות

With a gematria of 466, the shoresh סות means to ensnare or seduce to achieve a goal.

Well, despite whatever plan may be in the works to bring me down, you know what? I reject this being ensnared business. I can and do do that, because like an earlier tarot reading which I accepted, I am supported - תמכו - with a gematria of 466, to reject being ensnared.

So sorry. The plan to ensnare me has bit the dust.

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Sof Davar

כ"ב בתמוז תשס"ז

Today's hebrew letter tarot reading was carried out during the planetary hour of Pluto (Malchut of Echad) with the waning [1] crescent moon מ% full. In other words, the time of this tarot reading corresponds to the consciousness of Mashiach ben David flowing from the Malchut of Echad in Ein Sof.

The 3 letters, in order:

tav-shin-samech תשס

There is no shoresh composed of these letters in this specific order. However, the sha'ar tav-shin תש means to "grow weak." In other words, it refers to one in need of support. Indeed, the third letter, samech ס, means "support". Taken together, the sum of the matter (sof davar סוף דבר) is this - in my weakness, I am supported.

The gematria of the 3 letters is 760, the same gematria as the word שנית, meaning "a second time".

Bereshit 22:15 - "And the angel of the LORD called unto Abraham a second time out of heaven ..."

In my own life, when to me was "a second time" promised? In 1967. And now, it stands confirmed. A second time.

Footnote:

[1] A waning moon is weakening its reflection of the light of the sun, yet paradoxically increasing its transmission of consciousness from the malchut of echad.

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Matriarch Of Covenantal Messianic Consciousness

ט"ו בתמוז תשס"ז

In parashat Pinchas is the phrase (Bamidbar 26:46) "the name of Asher's daughter, Serach ..." (v'shem bat-Asher, Serach). In Hebrew, this phrase reads:

ושם בת-אשר שרח

There are 3, well actually 4, words in this phrase. We have seen this 3 or 4 phenomenon before - with both the Hebrew letter shin and with the Celtic fire festivals.

The gematriot:

ושם = 346
בת = 402
אשר = 501
שרח = 508
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1754 = digit sum = 17 טוב = final digit sum 8

Adding the gematriot of each word by place-column:

6 + 2 + 1 + 8 = 14
4 + 0 + 0 + 0 = 4
3 + 4 + 5 + 5 = 17

14 + 4 + 17 = 35 אלד = final digit sum 8

We can see that the word אלד is hidden in the gematriot of the Torah phrase introducing Serach as a significant member of Yaakov's family. The Sages wonder why is Serach, a woman, mentioned so atypically and significantly here?

This is what I think - Serach, like Yitzchak and Yaakov, is a direct recipient of the covenantal blessing from Avraham and Sarah. In other words, Serach is the feminine equivalent of both Yitzchak and Yaakov combined, in terms of directly receiving the covenantal blessing on the feminine side. This understanding is hidden in the word אלד, itself hidden within the Torah phrase of parashat Pinchas.

The word אלד means "I shall give birth". Sarah laughingly utters this word when Hashem tells Avraham that Sarah will bear a child, Yitzchak. Indeed, Serach the Eternal, is the source of Sarah's laughter regarding the birth of Yitzchak, and is the source of the "births" of both covenantal and messianic consciousness through the evolution of Sarah.

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