Shabbat Consciousness

According to Sabbatean kabbalah, there "exists" within Ein Sof a "thoughtbare" light (aur she-ein bo machshavah) inclined to rest within itself and resist creation.

Like it or not, this is true. I've written about it in some of my older writings describing preincarnate and prenatal memories; most notably here in First Beit, where I write in part:

The trying with a tail-end-side remembering back there, still sticking through the lava-likeness into the essence trying keeping remembering and remembering being-in going-through the awesomely fearful place of everyeverywhichway was deposited in the brilliant soothing darkness. Feeling smaller feeling relievedthatihadnotceasedintheeveryeverywhichway and feeling drawn back, toward Back There, like to a distant land on the other side yet very near, within remembering ever keeping.

Trying to go back yearning ...

This describes extension of the aur she-ein bo machshavah after being "drawn into" the created worlds, and MY FIRST ACTIVE THOUGHT (upon "being created") was TO GO BACK (to the place of complete rest). I didn't want to "be created". And my very first action after passing alive through the river of fire (the tzimtzum) was, despite the relief of the black empty place [1] I found myself in, was to brave the river of fire a second time and GO BACK.

But, I didn't go back. I heard something interesting which caught my attention. So, I stayed to find out what it was. And followed your voice "into being".

And well, first, after squeezing down through all these worlds and years, I better find you at the end of this journey or I am not going to be a happy camper.

Second, it's clear that shabbat consciousness, the need to "rest" and "resist creation" is rooted in the desire of the dark completely feminine principle within Ein Sof.

The inclination to fill the "time of rest" (shabbat) with "Torah thought" (aur hamachshavah) is rooted in the desire of the completely masculine principle within Ein Sof "to create". So, shabbat consciousness is, essentially, effecting a harmonious re-unification of these two "principles" within Ein Sof, through "thought-filled rest". Thought-filled rest is neither "creating" in terms against the desire of the feminine principle nor "not creating" in terms against the desire of the masculine principle. It synthesizes opposite desires with the principle of thought-filled rest.

Any thoughts out there on the matter? :)

Footnote:

[1] R' Aryeh Kaplan names this place the chalal hapanui. In Sabbatean kabblah, it is called, interestingly, the tehiru.

related webpage: A Mystery Of Consciousness

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