Rectified Binah & My Sephardic Connection

I dreamt.

I was in a cafeteria line (seder) gathering up a meal (shulchan oruch). There was a cauldron [1] of beef [2] and noodles [3]. I tried to dip with the cauldron's ladle [4] to get a portion of mostly noodles for myself. I tried to get mostly noodles (since I like noodles) and just a little bit of meat (since I'm not a big meat-eater).

Everytime I attempted to do it, nearly all of the noodles would fall off the ladle spoon and alot of meat would somehow manage to work itself up onto the ladle spoon. I would dump the spoon and retry again. This would happen each time I tried, so that I each time I ended up with mostly meat and very few or no noodles on the ladle spoon. That meat had kavanah! by golly!

The people behind me in the line were getting impatient. Ok, fine! I dumped the next ladle full of meat onto my thin paper [5] plate. It looks like I'm going to have to eat meat.

Next, I came to the soda fountain. I filled my large styrofoam cup up with ice, then with cola. As I started to put my cup of sodapop onto my cafeteria tray, all of the cola in my cup disappeared. The ice [6] remained. Only the cola vanished. I filled my cup up again with sodapop. Again, the cola disappeared. Ok, fine! I'll drink water.

I filled up my cup with water. The water didn't disappear. I moved on down the line and found a seat at a table in the cafeteria.

I woke up.

Footnotes:

[1] The cauldron symbolizes the Divine Feminine principle, the power of transformation and the "place" where Divine Knowledge and Inspiration (Hashra'ah) are brewed. See Samhain as the Scholars' Festival for women.

[2] Ashkenazi custom (Vilna Gaon) prohibits roasted meat at a seder, but Sephardi custom does not necessarily prohibit it. This detail of my dream suggests that I may also have some Sephardic ancestry (through my paternal Native American ancestry perhaps, or even through my maternal Jewish-British family line, the Grunwalds, since I've only assumed the entire Grunwald clan to be Ashkenazi because they came from England). It could also mean that my bashert has some Sephardic ancestry as well.

[3] Noodles are usually found in kugel dishes over pesach and shabbat. Also, lokshen (noodles) is a Yiddish term, where Yiddish is an Ashkenazic phenomenon. Consequently, given the "pot roasting meat" over "noodles", the dream is deliberately pointing out a Sephardic connection to me (see fn. 2).

[4] A ladle is likened to a Torah scholar. Sanhedrin 52b, perek dalet mitot. (see fn. 1 above)

[5] Samhain (sundown October 31 - November 1) marks the time when the veil between worlds is the thinnest.

[6] See Zohar #301. "If water is poured on them (the ice, like in my dream), the ice absorbs it. By the waters turning into ice, they have become a vessel to receive additional waters." In my dream, the ice remained as a vessel upon which water was accepted, but the sodapop was rejected and disappeared. Consequently, this detail of the dream speaks to the purity of my "ice vessel" to accept only pure water (of Atzilutic Torah and shefa) and to discern correctly (as ice "originates" from Binah). In other words, the dream is confirming that the Binah acting within my dreams is rectified Binah.

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Kli Hashem & The Mashpi'im

I dreamt.

My kids and I were sitting around a round table in our house in a mystical village outside of time. There was a bowl-like vessel in the middle of the wooden table into which we could draw water. I focused [1] to examine [2] our vessel more closely to see it more truthfully. Our vessel was not really a bowl - it looked like a minature water fountain with a protuberance in the center (emtza) [3] of it like one might see in a park, only it didn't have any water in it until we drew the water down.

Mostly, we drew (mashpi'im) the water down drop by drop through the motions of our lifted hands (a pintele fun oybin, a pintele fun untin) [3] in the air around it. In this manner (nesi'at kapayim), as mekubalim-kohanim, we would "form" the path each drop took. The drops of mystical water would fall focused onto the protuberance in the center of the vessel.

We were experimenting with how the whole dynamic of water drawing worked. As we put our hands into the air near the vessel when it had water in it, currents of energy [4] were drawn from our hands toward the water. I told my kids to be careful because we weren't quite sure how the process worked yet and the energy currents coming from us were powerful and could be dangerous if uncontrolled.

So, we experimented with the position of our water vessel, our hands and the drops of water as they fell into our place from beyond the periphery of the dream. At times, one of us would draw a bit more water and a whole big bunch of water would drop down, eliciting a "concentrated jumping" (dilug v' kefitzah) arc of powerful energy from the awesome current which flowed all through our bodies (which typically concentrated into our hands).

Oops. We didn't want to create an explosion by allowing the opposite forces (of water and fire) to come together too chaotically, in an uncontrolled manner. Our actions were shaping a "controlled chaos". In other words, with the water, we brought down and formed the great light of Tohu, and effectively "contained it" in a vessel of Tikun.

We were trying to make peace (oseh shalom) between and meld the forces together harmoniously, bit by bit, drop by drop. It was easy to do with the drops, and a more dangerous endeavor to try with large amounts of water, as the water elicited an equal "measured" response from the current running through our bodies.

It required skill to work with large amounts of water and energy, a skill which we were new to developing. So, we continued to work with small drops, and only occassionally would one of us draw down a bit more water. We were getting better at controlling the dynamical process of "water drawing" and working with the energy within us.

As we sat around our table, we heard an explosion from another house in the village. It was from a house next door where a woman lived there alone. She had been given a water bowl too. Her experiments had gotten out of her control, causing her bowl of water and the energy reaction to blow up in her face. She wasn't dead, the rescue workers told us as they raced by our house, but she was critically injured and burned badly. Nobody was sure if she'd survive the blast or not.

I woke up.

Footnote:

[1] "The ability to guard and focus one's sight correctly is the rectified "sense" of sight." (R. Yitzchak Ginsburgh) Rectified sight is associated with the 3 tribes of camp of Reuben - Reuben, Simeon and Gad - all situated in the south (see Possessing The Sea & The South).

[2] The ability to examine to discern truth and falsehood is a power of Binah.

[3] "What is an alef?" The Alter Rebbe continued melodically in Yiddish: "A pintele fun oybin, a pintele fun untin, a kav b'emtza-[The alef is] a dot above, a dot below, and a diagonal line suspended in between." Letters Of Light, Alef - The Difference Between Exile & Redemption, R' Aaron L. Raskin

[4] Here, in these currents (see link above), rests the power to harness the physical soul to effect change and influence reality.

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Big Bang & The Quark-Gluon Plasma

וחזרה לבהו ומאי בהו דבר שיש בו ממש דכתיב בהו בו הוא
Sefer HaBahir, verse 2 excerpt

Traditional interpretation: "... has substance. This is the reason that it is called bohu, that is, bohu - 'it is in it'."

Liorah's interpretation: "(tohu) iterates into bohu (chaotically) and then again differently iterates. Bohu (confused elements) combines into one (big bang) the fiery existence (QGP) in it tangibly, compressing and inscribing the chaotic elements in it, bringing (them) into being."

This excerpt reads like a physics lesson to me.

וחזרה and iterates

לבהו into bohu [1] chaotically

ומאי and then again differently iterates [2,3]

בהו bohu, the confused elements [1]

דבר combines into one [4]

שיש the fiery existence [5]

בו in it

ממש tangibly [6]

דכתיב compressing and inscribing [7] (in the sense of pulling it all together)

בהו the chaotic elements

בו in it

הוא bringing (them) into being [8]


Footnotes:

[1] the root בהה from which the word bohu is derived means "being chaotic" and "confuse elements", the lamed ל prefix indicates "into"

[2] among the many meanings of a vav ו prefix: "and again", "then", "different" - The Wisdom In The Hebrew Alphabet, R' Michael Munk

[3] the root from which the word מאי is derived, namely מאה, means "multiply", i.e., iterates, repetitively repeats

[4] the root דבר means: "combine separate items into one" like one big bang, "collecting", "gathering", "commandment", "connecting words into coherent speech", "temple interior", and more ...

[5] ש indicates fire/flame, while יש yesh means means "something existent"; taken together - a quark-gluon plasma

[6] ממש is an Aramaic word meaning tangibly, and a Yiddish word meaning "really", "truly", "surely"

[7] a word combination of the roots דכה meaning "squeeze" or "humble", and כתב meaning "write", "record", "inscribe"

[8] the root הוא means: "be", "exist", "being", "here", "behold", as well as the personal pronouns "he" and "she"

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Lifnei Mishurat HaDin

Klal Yisrael speaks ...

Torat Hashem temimah (Tehillim 19:8), lifnei mishurat hadin ...
and mishpat belongs to Elokim ... Devarim 1:17

D'bir (Elokah) KaKodesh, ruling the ruling:
Two words, two dreams: unpronouncable, unexecutable.

I dreamt two distinct yet connected dreams. First one, the demonic men of Moav:

A group of men¹ (dayanim) whom I couldn't see, but could hear, were discussing my writings. They were trying to find a way to rule them "treif". The deliberations were intense and they were having a hard time finding a "proof argument" to rule them treif. Yet, they sure as ---- weren't going to stop deliberating until they found some reason to rule them treif. The group of men finally decided on the word "byte"² in the phrase "byte by byte". Yes! They all concurred with the one who had suggested it. This is the reason, they unanimously agreed, they will use to rule my writings treif! So, they ruled my writings treif on account of the word "byte" in the phrase "byte by byte". But, I could sense the contrived ruling was itself treif and all those who had deliberated to rule it thusly knew it too. The ruling ruled falsely. And not one had properly defended my writings.³ Not one. The intent was not interested to discern emet (truth). It's interest was to manufacture evidence supporting a ruling of treif (dying).⁴ It was an unjust ruling, of Moav.

Second dream. Zechut eretz Yisrael (malchut-tiferet וה).

I was heading toward town down the main road (derekh)⁵ that runs in front of the house. Yet, I was trying to get home. To get there I turned off the main road onto a side road (netiv derekh eretz) to turn toward the direction of home rather than heading into town. There was snow⁶ on the ground.

There were some hybrid crocodile-wild dogs eating animals they had hunted on the sideroad I had taken that led toward home. They eyed me. I eyed them right back, showing no fear. They let me pass, as without fear of them, I was too much "trouble" for them to attack.

It was dangerous country I was in. Strange wild and ferocious creatures populated it. I walked on. In the distance, at the edge of this wild countryside, I could see a gas station. Civilization! If I can only make it to the gas station, I thought, I'll be safe. For some reason, these demonic creatures were confined to the wild country and couldn't enter civilized places.

I was almost there. Then suddenly, many green-colored humanoid creatures of large stature came out the woods nearby and started to attack me. The humanoid creatures looked like "the incredible hulk" creature (in the television series). Somehow, those from the civilization responded to the attack (whether with intent to defend me or as an unintended act of hashgachah pratis⁷, I don't know), shooting arrows into the mass of green humanoids. It distracted the creatures' attention away from me, who pulled out their bows and also shot arrows into the air.

Amidst a mass of flying arrows, I kept my eye (focused sight) on the gas station. I safely arrived to the edge of civilization.

I woke up.

Interestingly, yesterday there was a major natural gas leak by the country club down the road from the house where I am staying. We weren't really affected in any significant way (other than to hear the news of the event).

Footnotes:

¹ Twenty-three judges are required to establish a beit din to judge capital cases, as judging something "treif" sentences it to the category of "dying" (treif).

² yiddish byte (ביט), see Altered States, Patach Mashiach, Behold, A Dove In The Tub, Kaparah & Achdut, Drawing Down Shefa

³ The 7th Noachide law: establishing a legal system; the Noachide Laws apply to Jews as well as to non-Jews. In other words, the Noachide Laws are the universal spiritual laws which apply to all humankind. The particularity of any religious or moral tradition is established on the base of this universal human foundation. No particular system can "stand" without this base of righteousness. Not even Judaism. Judaism is a religious system based on Torah. Torah is not Judaism, despite that the religious system of Judaism is fashioned to "guard and transmit Torah". Torah belongs to all humankind.

⁴ The beit din cannot pronounce a capital punishment if the ruling is unanimous.

⁵ Zohar II, 251a; Sefer Yetzirah 1:1

⁶ Daniel 7:9.

⁷ Divine Providence, zechut eretz Yisrael

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Kaparah And Achdut

Since I filled up the tub in a dream, I might as well fill up the "reverse vision" yiddish word for tub (toyb -> bit) that is a dove too. Here goes:

Bit spelled ביט equals:

בית יוד טית = 851

851 = באמתחת = "in the sack of" (Bereshit 44:12) where Yosef's brother's bags were searched and the wine goblet was found "in the sack of" Benjamin.

That is (not) so surprising, given the fact that I had a dream about a ~3/4 empty bottle of Manischewitz wine "in the tote of" me yesterday morning, and it made me feel like Benjamin too. I blogged it in my personal journal, naming the second post "Benjamin's Tote".

יבא ידיד בן ידיד ויבנה ידיד לידיד בחלקו של ידיד ויתכפרו בו ידידים

Menachot 53a

The companion son of the companion shall come and build the companion for the companion in the portion of the companion in order to atone (kaparah) for the companions.

Rabbi Yitzchak Ginsburgh writes¹:

This riddle of the sages is interpreted to mean: "Solomon, the descendant of Avraham, shall come and build the Temple, for G-d, in the portion of Benjamin, in order to atone for Israel." The sages cite a verse for each of the above six in which it is referred to as ידיד, "companion". From this we learn that the concept "companion" unifies the souls of Israel and G-d through the means of the specific archetypal souls and the Temple service.

Rabbi Pinchas Winston writes:

As basic to the Torah Jew as eating and sleeping are the concepts of teshuvah and kaparah -- repentance and atonement (though the latter are harder to do, but, far more meaningful, if only in the long run). Simply put, teshuvah is what we human beings do by, 1.) regretting the sin, 2.) verbalizing the admission (viduy), and 3.) avoiding the sin the next time it becomes a possibility to commit it. Kaparah, on the other hand, is what G-d gives to us if we MERIT to have the previous "slate" wiped clean.

Actually and more precisely, the bottle of wine in the dream was not quite 3/4 empty - it was more like 7/8 empty - just like the real bottle of shabbat Manischewitz wine I've had sitting in my room for months. Just sitting there by my shabbat candlesticks that have also remained unlit over the past several months. I've spent my shabbatot completely in the dark essence (תא) of night.

Footnote:

¹ The Hebrew Letters, Channels Of Creative Consciousness, R. Yitzchak Ginsburgh

Drawing Down Shefa

There are 7 stages of drawing down divine sustenance from the Ein Sof. ביט is the 8th vessel, which both gives and receives. In other words, it is the atarah¹.

The shorashim (roots) are primarily configurations of emanation (atzilut), while "words" (derivatives of roots) are primarily configurations of creation and making² (beriyah and asiyah, respectively). That said, there is no root ביט. There are 5 "hebrew roots" as mentioned in a previous post. The 3-letter configuration ביט (as I understand it) is not a hebrew root, or any hebrew word in my hebrew dictionary³. Moreover, in the form as it is (with a gematria of 21), it isn't a word in the Torah either⁴. It is, however, a novel word. As a novel word⁵ in the world of assiyah, it is associated with yiddish by reverse vision nonlinearly⁶ with the evolving 7 meanings as follows:

one, to say, sun, to be, to ask, deaf and (finally, shema and behold) dove

There are 7 levels of meaning "drawing down into" this "yiddish" word, and whether Eliezer of Worms originally meant it as a yiddish word or as merely a "novel word" of Torah is irrelevant to the fact that everything I've posted earlier stands as true with respect to patach mashiach.

There are no mistakes. There are only ways to get there.

Footnotes:

¹ Hebrew manuscript connected with R. Eleazar of Worms [published in Kabbalah:new perspectives by Moshe Idel, p.193, hebrew text on p.372].

² Words are the expression of thought. The letter ה is the second and last letter of יה-וה, the Divine Name. ה is the letter representing beriyah and asiyah, and expression.

³ New Bantam Megiddo Hebrew-English Dictionary

⁴ The Spice Of Torah - Gematria, Gutman G. Locks

⁵ Zohar I, 8b-9a

⁶ Here, we can see that the 7 words are connected "nonlinearly" in the table. The table is not a haphazard arrangement of different vowel pronunciations and words; complex pattern and meaning emerge from the arrangement.

Behold A Dove In The Tub

By golly, a dove is in the tub.

ביט is the reverse vision of the yiddish word toyb (northeastern), toub (mideastern), and tub (southeastern) - all meaning "dove", a most loyal bashert. Importantly, through the association of toyb-tub (טיב-טוב) with dove, it is the ezer knegdo to ביט.

Consequently, we can behold (a meaning associated through the kabbalistic symbolism of "dove") that ביט is to Yaakov, as Leah and Rachel are to טיב-טוב, respectively.

Altered States, The Tub

Morgan80203 tells us that the word ביט is yiddish and means a basin or tub. Interestingly, earlier this month, I had a dream about altered states with a tub in it, and also in the tub, an alien who turned out to be human.

Somehow, I feel like I'm down to the wire and being drawn in. Yiddish is a complex synthesis (וה) of the worlds of tohu (ה) and tikun (ו), and much like binah consciousness (in the way of chasdei David hane'emanim¹). Hebrew is more "simple" and like chochmah (י) consciousness "prior" to its extension (ו) into the world of tikun.

וה is the part of the divine name יה-וה which refers to hamashiach and/or messianic consciousness (Sefer Hakdamah, referenced in Studies In Ecstatic Kabbalah, Moshe Idel).

This association makes ביט the real-word correspondence to וה and supports that it is the "patach mashiach" to messianic consciousness. The key is with binah, which is chaos and complexity.

Got milk to go with these yiddishe cookies?

footnotes:

¹ Gates of Light, R. Yosef Gikatilla and Inner Dimension audio lesson here