Thursday, March 10, 2011

Bound Consciousness - The Danger of Pork

Raven 7

Last night I was hungry, so I ate a piece of pizza in the family refrigerator. The pizza had pepperoni on it. I don't eat pork as a rule, but last night, I thought, "what the heck, nothing has happened in the past when I ate pork as a little girl or before as an adult, nothing will happen if I eat this piece of pepperoni pizza now either." I'm not just Jewish. I'm from lots of peoples. I can eat pork. So, I ate it.

I had trouble getting to sleep last night, and when I finally dozed off, it was at least after 5 a.m. in the morning. Then, I dreamt. This is the relevant part of the dream ...

I had three children in my household. They laid down upon the back porch to watch a show across the way while I was busy arranging things inside the home. When the show was over, two of the children got up from the surface of the back porch, but the third child couldn't get up. He was stuck to the surface. It was like this - like a CD with recordings on it may typically be removed from its plastic protective cover, two of the children could be removed from the surface upon which they had laid down to watch the show. But the third child, like a recording which had been laid down upon the plastic wrapping itself instead of on a removable usable CD, he was stuck to the empty plastic packaging and couldn't get back up. While I could pick up the piece of plastic with him on it from the porch, he couldn't be removed from the piece of plastic cover. The CD had been missing from the surface unit he had laid down upon, and the conscious 'recording' had melded into the CD covering jacket instead.

The feeling which coursed through me at this realization was awful. I asked him if there was another copy of him. Yes, there is, he told me, but neither of us knew where it was. Thank Goddess, he has another copy of himself somewhere else in the home. He would not be lost to me for good, but he was hungry, he was starving and wanted to eat. But, there was nothing I could do to lift him up off of the plastic he had laid down upon. I fretted with a profound pain. I wouldn't be able to feed him until I found the other copy of him. Even more, I wouldn't be able to talk with him much longer because the piece of plastic he was bound to would not be with me forever. I have to find the other copy of him, soon - I want to do this before the piece of plastic to which this copy of consciousness is bound is lost to my awareness.

The awful feeling of sadness and helplessness I have this afternoon is awful. While all the times in the past, nothing became bound to the pork I ate, this time something did. Thank Goddess, I have another copy of this piece of consciousness. Sadly, I do not know where it is and he is hungry now.

Never again will I wittingly eat any pork or pork product. Never ever again. Consciousness may truly become irretrievably bound to it - like a recording being laid down upon a CD cover instead of upon the CD itself.

Never ever again.

7 comments:

Jayne said...

The characters of the Three Little Pigs came to my mind after reading this.If you abstain from eating meat for ethical reasons,perhaps your subconscious personified your conscious choice with the depiction of equating animals with children.I view animals as equals and the older I get,the less meat I eat.

Myfanwy said...

No, I don't abstain from eating meat for ethical reasons and I do not equate children with animals. I do also honor Awareness as it manifests within the beings of animals. My dream is related to a metaphysical reality as it relates to my specific being, not to the status of animals as aware beings in their own right.

In my dreams, I tend to equate children with new ideas, new realities or new transitions of the hidden unconscious soul into consciousness awareness which have come or are coming into being, depending on the age of the "child". In other words, to me, children in dreams represent areas of my unconsciousness which have become newly revealed in conscious awareness. The pork issue for me is not one of ethics, it is one of a metaphysical reality as it pertains to my specific soul, which is made from a tapestry of many ancestries. This dream is telling me that pork interferes with the portion of my soul derived from my Jewish ancestry - part of this soul aspect does not interact well with pork in a metaphysical sense. This undesirable reaction may not be true of other ancestral soul aspects, but for the memories connected to my Jewish ancestors, pork meat is dangerous and may interfere with the revelation of these ancestral memories (living recordings).

Part of the the work of a shaman is soul retrieval, not only for others but for oneself as well. Pork meat in some way interferes with retrieval of the hidden soul aspects as it relates to my Jewish ancestry.

Myfanwy said...

Also, I don't think this undesirable reaction of the soul happens with pork every single time a person of Jewish ancestry eats pork. On the contrary, most of time, this reaction DOES NOT occur. Never before has this happened. But this one time, it did. The reaction is a rare reaction - most of the time, nothing will happen, nothing will become "bound", but what can be lost when it does happen cannot be unbound - this is the danger, the possibility of an irretrievable loss. In this dream, the loss was not of something unique, there is another copy within me - but this may not be the case the next time, if there is ever a next time - which there won't be if I can help it.

Myfanwy said...

Jayne, I'd be interested to hear your thinking on the story of the 3 little pigs if you would like to share. I do agree that there is a metaphysical reality encoded in this story ... I'm not sure what it is though.

Jayne said...

You are more spiritually evolved than I:my mind's eye applied a more literal interpretation.The Three Little Pigs arose from my visualizing the imagery of the trio from the childhood classic film The March of the Wooden Soldiers.I suppose it surfaced there-in due to the depiction of the porcine brothers with human characteristics.I also thought that the children in your dream were enclosed in plastic similar to supermarket meat(again, my interpretive association).
One of my maternal great grandmothers was a Jewess.I am unclear as to why pork is a bane to the Hebrew as well as the Muslim faith ; except for the fact that it has to do with pigs' cloven feet.I am also ignorant as to the kosher observance of the separation of dairy from meat.I went into a shop a few weekends ago and was enchanted by a mezuzah: it was ornately beautiful.I asked the shopkeeper about itand she told me that it was not a traditional one.I had read of them but never actually seen one.It captivated me.

Myfanwy said...

No, I'm not more spiritually evolved at all.

I'm also Celtic as well as Jewish, so while it is dangerous to me from the perspective of Jewish ancestry to eat pork, the pig itself is sacred to me from the perspective of my Celtic ancestry. Swine are a sacred totem to Ceridwen, one of the primary Goddesses of Welsh-Celtic myth. So, while I don't eat pork meat, I do hold the Pig to be a sacred Animal.

If your great grandmother was a Jewess, the possibility exists that you may be one as well. At any rate, your have Jewish ancestry, so that makes you Jewish (as well as a member of whatever people you consider yourself to be a member of) in my book.

Jayne said...

I agree with your conjecture and am also of Scottish,English,Polish,& Russian descent.As for faith,I was raised in the Russian Orthodox Catholic tradition and am presently walking a solitary pagan path.

Dare to be true to yourself.