י״ח באלול תש"ע
Commentary on Ki Tavo from Garden of the Dark Moon Jubilee - Unexpected Results.
Saturday, August 28, 2010
Friday, August 27, 2010
י״ז באלול תש"ע
I didn't sleep at all last night. I finally was able to fall asleep and get a few hours of rest after sunrise this morning. Then, I dreamt.
I was in a space station like chamber in outer space. With me there were two men. One was my friend. The other was like an evil wizard (who reminds me now of the wicked witch in The Wizard of Oz, only a male in this case). The evil wizard had brought my friend and I to the space station to steal the crown that only I could reach (just like the wicked witch wanted to steal the ruby slippers Dorothy wore in The Wizard of Oz).
The evil wizard thought I was gullible like Dorothy and would just give the crown over to him as easily as Dorothy wanted to give over her ruby slippers to the wicked witch when challenged for it, so he had brought my friend and I there so that I could climb up the tower ladder that went up from the space station to bring down the crown that rested at the utmost top of it. I let him think I was gullible like Dorothy so he wouldn't interfere with my climb or hurt my friend as I climbed. But, I had no intention of giving over my crown to him.
He wanted the crown so that he could rule the world with it's powers. It's my crown, and I'm going to use it's powers to enable myself to do my craftwork in peace. I'm like the evil witch who doesn't want to be bothered and to keep from being disturbed is going to buy a strong deadbolt for my door and a welcome mat that reads "GO AWAY."
Anyway, as I was standing there in the space station chamber with my friend and this evil wizard, in my dreaming mind, even though there was no obvious symbolism to suggest it, I knew that this space station and the ladder with the crown on the top of it were in a mikveh. I'm not sure how the clear association came to exist (as I've only been to a mikveh once in my life), but there it was.
Interjected here in the dream, between the mikveh association and beginning of my climb up the tower ladder, I encountered the space station dining room filled with diners, some cookies, a big dog running loose and some stairs. I took some cookies from the dining room (but never ate them) and avoided the big dog by taking a twisting winding chaotic path on the stairs between various floors of the space station. Then, I climbed the tower ladder and retrieved my crown, claiming it as my own as I touched it for the first time at the top of the tower ladder that only I could climb. The claim reverberated down and the evil wizard knew now that I'm not Dorothy and he was not in Kansas. I was crowned, and he can't have my crown or now hurt my friend now that I am wearing the crown.
Suddenly, I was in my earth bedroom (as it appeared when I was a teenager) with some girlfriends. There was a terrible tornado directly overhead (the evil wizard must be having a fit, I thought). My girlfriends wanted me to get down on the floor so that I wouldn't get drawn up into the winds of the tornado, but I wasn't afraid. I had to get my earrings off the dresser top, so I stood up and got them. They thought I was crazy. But, I knew the winds of the tornado couldn't touch me, and I really wanted to wear my pretty witchy earrings, even within the midst of a tornado (witches are fearless like that, you know). So, I got them and put them on, then got back down on the floor along with my girlfriends.
I woke up, having had only a few hours of sleep this morning.
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
ט״ז באלול תש"ע
Last night, following creating CRYSTAL VISIONS Scrying and Divination Incense under the Full Moon (ב) during the planetary hour of Jupiter (ת), I dreamt.
After returning home from checking on another woman's well being, I was in my house (which was also my place of business) sweeping my room (like witches do). My eye was caught by a movement of light and dark. I looked up toward the window. Even though bright natural sunlight filled the room inside, between the cracked open curtains at the window, I saw that it was completely jet black outside. It was so black outside there was a total absence of light, like reverse light - thick, opaque, impenetrable from the outside. It wasn't frightening at all. In fact, I felt completely protected inside by it - it surrounded my room, my light inside the room and me as I swept and went about my business in peace.
I woke up.
As the photo demonstrated light-capture through the craft item and my dream further revealed it's connection to reality, it's clear that my handmade ritual incenses and other witchcrafts are not just crafty creations but are truly magical tools in communication with a unified multiverse.
Saturday, August 21, 2010
Friday, August 20, 2010
י׳ באלול תש"ע
Last night, I dreamt.
I was on a school bus sitting alone, near the middle but toward the front of the bus as well, in a seat on the right side of the aisle. Several others were on the bus as well, the females in the front of the bus and the males in the back.
One of the guys came forward and sat down beside me in my seat. It seems we knew each other from some time in the past, from when exactly I'm not sure, but I knew it was true. We were beshert. After a few words together, we chastely kissed, sealing the fact that we were destined. Then, he moved back with the guys at the back of the bus.
After getting off the bus, I was sitting beside him at one of the many long banquet tables in a banquet hall. He received his PhD certificate at the ceremony being held there.
The most interesting part about this dream however, was that as I was waking up, I could still feel my soul "settling down" into the weightedness of my body. As my soul "sat down upon the base" of my body, as the two elements interfaced and came together, a multitude of brilliant sparks flew out from between them as the connection became "locked and bound."
Thursday, August 19, 2010
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
ז' באלול תש"ע
Last night, following my rune divination, I dreamt.
Among my many dreams, Raven - not just a black bird in form - but specifically, Raven appeared to me in my dream. Raven identified Itself specifically in my dream as Raven. Totemic Raven activates magical energy, linking Will and Intention to make manifest great life changes and deep healing.
Raven is a shaman, teacher of mysteries, guide, creator, protector, savior and a totem of deep joy. One does not choose a totem. The totem choose the person.
Raven has chosen me.
Wyrd Gift of the Universe
Bechirah Chafshit - Free Will
Dangerous Mind - Choice
ז' באלול תש"ע
Last night early in the wee morning hours, I drew a rune to discern the energy pattern at work in the Universe as it relates to me at this point in time. I drew Perthro, the wyrd rune whose most esoteric meaning still remains a mystery to scholars. As it pertains to divination, Perthro deals with things hidden coming to light, esoteric secrets becoming disclosed, new opportunity, retrieval of things thought lost for good, occult abilities and unexpected surprises and gains. Perthro also means vessel, the female practice of witchcraft and to dance.
So, I put the "unexpected gain" to the test and did something totally out of character for me - I bought a single lottery ticket (I never buy lottery tickets) and won a small amount (less than $20). With my winnings, I bought this handmade rune cup crafted with Perthro in gold on it. Gold runes adorn both the bottom and top of the brown leatherette cup. Opposite Perthro, the other side of the cup is adorned with gold Bind Runes for divination and spiritual growth.
Perthro brings blessing to this period of unemployment while I look for work as I take advantage of the opportunity to develop WITCHCRAFTS and EarthLight Originals - my etsy shoppe and the shoppe my mother and I just launched (which will be stocked with our first few items by the end of this week).
Monday, August 16, 2010
ו' באלול תש"ע
Last night I dreamt.
There was a pack of vampires, each one hunting and eating the flesh of his or her assigned victim. One after another, each vampire succeeded in it's task, and having done so, it would return to the vampire den. Satiated, the group of vampires lounged in their den discussing together their "excellent meals" of human flesh. As each one discussed his or her "meal", each victim effigy from among the effigies of all assigned victims (which had been hung from the center point of the den's ceiling like a bunch of bananas) fell lifeless to the floor.
I was an assigned victim. It was night and I was being hunted by a vampiress. I sought refuge in my locked car. The vampiress couldn't get to me, so the others watching remotely from the den called to her to break the window glass.
Trying to break into the car but not breaking the glass, suddenly the vampiress stopped trying and backed off. I was now the vampiress watching me through the opposite side of the car's window. She just wasn't going to do this. She wasn't going to kill me and eat my human flesh as she had been designed to do. It was against the nature of a vampire to allow me to live, but she had a choice. Even vampires have a choice - and she chose not to kill me or eat my flesh. She decided it and let me go.
As the choice was complete, a flowing wall of black lava-like darkness came into view and engulfed the vampiress, returning her to her source, leaving me alive and not a victim.
I woke up.
Related entry - Dangerous Mind
Saturday, August 14, 2010
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
א' באלול תש"ע
Through the night of August 12 (this Thursday) and the morning of August 13 (this Friday) the Perseids meteor shower peaks, producing up to 60 meteors per hour. Look to the northeast after midnight and you may see a spectacular light show!
The Perseids meteor shower is visible to the naked eye annually in late summer from roughly July 23 through August 22, depending on weather conditions and your location on the earth. The source of the meteor shower is debris from the comet Swift-Tuttle. As the earth passes through the comet's debris cloud, earth is treated to multitude of falling stars traveling at 71 kilometers per second. Though the lights are bright, each falling star is typically no bigger than a grain of sand.
This year, the slender waxing crescent moon sets early in the evening, leaving the sky deeply dark for good visibility in clear weather. The wee hours before dawn is the best time to see persistent trains from the falling stars.
Posted by Lori at 9:50 PM
Sunday, August 08, 2010
כ"ח באב תש"ע
My mother and I are going into business together selling handcrafted original recipe ecofriendly natural perfumes, lotions, salves, and other personal care and alternative medicinal products (both my biochemistry degree and professional nursing experience will come in handy here to provide scientific support for any herbal remedies we may offer). We've agreed on a name for our joint business venture - EarthLight Originals.
We've ordered some supplies with which to handcraft small samples of our first two products (including a double boiler dedicated to our shoppe work) and established our etsy and email addresses. This week, in between sending out resumes, I'll be working on creating an artsy banner for our new joint shoppe. Mom will create package product labels from the banner we choose to go with.
We've repurposed a cute antique cabinet in the dining room to hold our initial supplies. We're both really excited about doing this. It's fun work! Everything we make with be handcrafted with love.
כ"ח באב תש"ע
Last night I dreamt a complex dream in three parts.
First, a small group of men were fixing a train track. One man standing on the track leaned over and made the final repair to the track, then indicated to another man to wait to turn on the electricity which powered the track until he himself got off the metal of the track and out of the way. He didn't want to be electrocuted when the juice moved through. The man on the track moved away from it, and the others turned on the power. A fast moving train came into view, slowed it's speed as it approached, and rolled with weight over the place where the track had been repaired. The repair held. The train continued to slow and then stopped, it's front engine car coming to a rest right in front of me. [Never before in a dream, has a train ever stopped benignly in front of me. Usually, I'm trying to avoid being run over or smashed by one, but in this dream, the train stopped smoothly at my feet.] Something was ready now.
Second, a really odd dream inclusion - there was a ship constructed of a blend of things I had made which included snake essence (see here and here). The snake was a dangerous ingredient which kept growing, but I cut the two ends of it as they would poke out windows of the ship like growing hairs, keeping the whole blend in perfect balance.
Third, suddenly, I was standing on the sidewalk outside (where I am currently living) with someone I had been paired with. We were to go on a very dangerous journey to someplace few knew about and from which few had ever returned alive. It was another test. Most thought we would be killed during this test, but without a doubt I knew we wouldn't be. This place to where we were to journey and return (proving our survival to those sending us) lay beyond the hedgerow fence and the plain fence at the edge of the property of my home. This place had a name (see below) and it was located south of our position. We were sent and told not to stop until we got there.
At some point in the distant past I had built a hidden protective nest-like hiding place along the inner side of the plain fence on the south property border near where it joined with the hedgerow fence on the west border of the property. No one knew about the hidden nest-like structure I had built there - except my companion. My companion motioned me to follow him into this protective nest for the night so that we could start our journey refreshed in the morning. I did. My companion thought we were disobeying the order of those who sent us for stopping to rest for the night in my hidden nest. I thought so too at first (but by the time I woke up and wrote of it, I understand it differently* now).
The place we were journeying to had a name in my mind - it's name was ננשׂון - I visually saw these letters of the name in my dreaming mind. It was pronounced something like Nĭnasōn. The "place" we had been sent toward consisted of a group of three distinct camps beyond the fence. The leader of the first camp we would journey to might kill us if he knew my companion and I were paired - my companion told me - so my companion asked me to not to tell the leader of our relationship, but to let him think we were just traveling together - and though he didn't say it - he meant for me to tell the leader that we were like brother and sister, not companions. If the leader of that place knew we were paired companions, it might stir up trouble for us.
I woke up, reminded of Abraham and Sarah's and Isaac and Rebecca's journeys to Gerar. Gerar (meaning "dragging down, grinding circularly") begins with the magical letter gimel which has a gematria of three - like the three camps which together, in my mind, are a place contrarily called ננשׂון. The shoresh of this place-name is נשׂא with a שׂ, meaning "raising, lifting, appointing, sustaining and leader."
Importantly, the place in my mind has no power to stir up trouble for us. It's name is ננשׂון and not גְּרָר. See then that in this place, we are not dragged down. On the contrary, we are raised up to be leaders.
Note *We were never meant to stop in גְּרָר, and we stopped when we arrived there, in ננשׂון.
Friday, August 06, 2010
Tuesday, August 03, 2010
כ"ד באב תש"ע
Tonight I drew the twenty-third rune for my personal runerow - Kenaz, the k-rune, the torch. Kenaz is the force of controlled fire, occult female secrets, esoteric knowledge, regeneration through death or sacrifice, the ability and will to create, the ability and will to control energy and the ability and will to master the technical aspects and artistry of magic.
The Universe is so in tune with what happens in my life. Importantly, this directly speaks to the magical operation I performed earlier today. So mote it be, אמן.
Runes 1-3: Transmission of a Sacred Secret
Rune 4: The Wholiness Code
Rune 5: Mysteries of the Staircase
Rune 6: The Ship of Safe Passage
Rune 7: The Ætheling
Rune 8: Communication
Rune 9: The Nature Of My Work
Runes 10-11: Wyrd Shema
Rune 12: The View From My Room
Rune 13: Thurisaz On The Falling Man
Rune 14: Power To Do It
Rune 15: Wyrd Preparation
Rune 16: Mother Of Manifest Blessing
Rune 17: By Force Of Destiny
Rune 18: The Othala Force
Rune 19: Secrets Of The Name
Rune 20: Vardlokkur
Rune 21: Alchemy Of The Word
Rune 22: The Binding Power Of Blæd, Blyss And Byrg Geniht